cny eve

wow today morning go dragon boat. ARE YOU READY? ready! lol. then you row. wow wo wow. i love dargon boat. tough and xin ku and torturous and stuffs very physically demanding so much so i cant express it here in words unless you go down and do NANYANG DRAGON BOAT.. then will you know how taxing it is. frankly i consider myself very physically fit and sporty already.. and im abit suffering from this. let alone the other.. er.. lesser sports cells people.. i meant to say yun dong xi bao in english.. but i dont think it came out right. so yea.

wow today i feel high because HAKIM from my OG praises my BICEPS (or was it triceps) when we were bathing. guys strip la. so outside when i took of my clothes he complimented them and said " wah darren your biceps quite defined ar.." lol. i felt super high. lol. so at least i dont feel so inferior anymore. i remember when my maths teacher ask me what cca. i say dragon boat he said something like.. " so small size join dragon boat arr.." lol. i'll show you. just give me time.. i'll show you the shit.

so after dragonboat go kallang eat prata with some of thoes db guys. damn tired. sleep on mrt. like some goon. then im so tired yet i have to be hyped for dinner cause i've invited guests over.. and they are none other then...

the PRCS!!! yay.. actualy 3 out of 7 only. lol. Zhang ren.. lijing..yulong.. yay.. so nice so fun so pleasant.

they are very very jovial... cheerful.. humourous.. and open la.. not thoes paiseh type.. keep quiet type... all tallk alot and laugh alot. i like that. really. despite my physical weakness and mental tiredness and my lousy state of well being... the dinner came out right and nice. coming here was quite a problem tho. zr was stuck somewhere around toa payoh and lj and yl waited at hougang mrt for like damn long. abt 30 mins i guess. cool huh. end up my dad and i went down to fetch them. they eat alot. yl eat alot of bowls of rice. just keep going and going.. and the dinner was damn funny. i hope they enjoyed it..

going home.. my mum gave them oranges and ang baos.. so lucky right? you want? you come. lol. pre booking is reccomended. lol. anyway we talked alot after dinner. it was very nice and pleasant and warm la.. no one awkward moment to think of it. it was like just a passing remark by my mum to invite them over for dinner.. and i just happened to blurt it out when i saw them ytd at cchs.. and somehow they came. and somehow it is over. VERY FUNNY i must stress. my dad hit off well with them. he even must take out guitar and haolian his singing voice and sing a song to them.. the " you've got to try a little kindess.. yeah.. show a little kindness" song.. they liked it.

ahah. so tt's it. about what happened on the eve of cny eve... just type links. and click on weihong's blog. all's up there. nth to blog abt so i din put it here. first sec sch visit.. vball.. den ct outing. cool fun nice.. i look forward to cny ang baos.. goodies.. dragon boat... training.. then o's results.. lets stay happy this way shall we.

swt 17

17 years on dis earth. cool aint it. it might sound stupid. but i realised that you can only be one age once. so in a way. tt makes it special. meaning u cannot go back to that age anymore again. so as what vanessa said.. "enjoy ur last moments of being 16.." lol.. i dont know why.. but i like the feeling and the whole issue of being 16. its like a break through from being a child. well. to say the least.. something like being a young teenager?

coming to think of it. then what does being 17 implies? well for most its a BRAND new change of education. environment... style... whatever it is.. its really a huge leap. from sec sch to poly / jc. to me its really a big jump. many admitted this too. at least in pri 6 when u go sec sch and become the youngest in the sch again... you still feel connected and not really out of place.. but in jc.. strangely. you are like. MADE TO GROW UP. to mature fast. and the pace of like is quickened. really. the self discipline thingy now is like so imbued in everyones head for jc students. seriously. you can see from the fact that you attend lectures freely. i mean like. it aint like sec sch when u attend lessons. in jc u go to LECTURES. and i feel so grown up. reminds me of thoes seminars and courses miss lim made me to go in pri sch and thoes in sec sch. very very cool. air con room and lecturers speakin from all around you. (because of the surround sound speakers) good or bad.. i just have to accept it and adapt to it.

just spent some time reading through what i was doind at this time last year. basically it was the whole new start of the O LEVEL TERROR. irronically. after a year. that terror is still in my mind now. well. do i have to go on? the RESULTS. scary. really. if you think of it. even the best students will have that small corner in their heart where it makes people feel nervous. cant imagine what it would be like on the release day. will anyone "beng kui?" like break down? cry? or i dont know. feel the end of the world is here. of course. like others. i want to feel exhilrated. hopefully because of seeing thoes single strokes. the a1's. i dont ask for alot. just 3 or 4 will do. and a score of below 10 is of course pleasantly welcomed.

days pass by. nanyang is again frocing me to stay in ny with its formiddable forces of attraction. i dont know if its a good thing. but at least i feel this safety net holding on to me IF i happen to fall. (means if i score badly for o's) for the loyalty points... cca points... affliation points... i can minus 4 at least. so well. hopefully i get be in nanyang even if i get a score of 16. which to me is the worst case.

i'm officially 17 alr. today is sorta my first time celebrating my bdae in sch. i mean with the cake and all that. the cake was nice. bought from some near by confectionery shop i guess. but i cant imagine how they even planned it or carried out the whole thing. according to jiaping.. she said they bought it the day before ( which is ytd... ) and then christianne brought it home ( i think so ) then this morning in school. they left the cake inside the staff room. wait. heres the cool part. HOD STAFF ROOM. our econs teacher. its soooo coool. i really cannot imagine my cake being placed inside. its so TUO PAI la. what the teachers think and all that. its even more COOL that our econs teacher agreed to it. well of course thats a reason for it.

I THINK. i think it is because of my fast and efficient ways. well the first tutorial with out econs teacher was nice and pleasant cos it wasnt much of a lesson.. it was relaxing yet we learn new stuffs. she was told im the CT rep and since we dont have a ECONS REP. i was made to collect money ( $2 each ) from them. ME BEING FAST AND RESPONSIBLE did it right after the lesson. and BOOM. i got everything. the exact amount. promptly the money was passed to our econs teacher. waaahhhh.. i think she was damn glad la.. cos we're like the first few or perhaps first class to hand in the money so fast la. no need to be bugged at. somehow.. she formed an impression on me and jiaping.

so she agreed to help and yea the cake was chilled in the HOD room. we had assembly which was the last period of the day for everyone since its a cca day today.. the programmes were fun and that was when i saw tiffy, calcy and mich ho frm 4hm crash. they were in ny. anyway one programme was by the councillors lookin for OGLs. they want us j1's to be OGLs for the upcoming orientation. theres one part where they ask people to stand up to dance. dance the sch dance. all the j1's were reluctant and not very enthu.. many were groaning. lol den me and dixon just stood up. whole hall two guys seated so close together due to space constriant just stand up in the middle of the hall. eeeee.. thick skinnned sia. so after assembly. i went down and was not prepared for anything. until i saw the cake. seriously. seriously im shocked. i din know that bought the cake. or they bought a cake for me. my very first time in school. oh man.. i feel deprived yet so honoured.

then thanks to them they smahed one slice of cake on me. i was really caught off guard. after blowing candles and singing and all... jiaping cut one slice put on plate and gave it to me tell me to eat. i dont know what happened whether i wanna pass to someone else or eat it myself but they smacked the goddamn thing on my face. first one drop after smashin.. then jia ping came along with a

" eh ni ok ma? " with that she gave me a second helping. to the pleasure of my eyes.. hair... nose and predominantly my face la. still can ROTATE SUMMORE. like smearing some peanut butter on my face. wah liaoo.. yvonne was at the canteen la...!!! i cannot imagine how i look la.. how "lang bei" or pathetic i look. with cake on my face. my vision was entirely blurred and i only smell cake.. see cake.. feel cake.. and of course.. taste cake. then i went off to wash. haha. it was very fun la. but i dont know why one of them could have mistaken that i was annoyed or what. cos he went " u nvm rite" in thoes kind of "thinkin i am agry" tone. i mean i wont be la. its all in the name of fun. haha. my face stink of cake ever since. my hair is like. got a layer of wax and hell it was quite disgusting.

henry gave me a necklace.. geokting gave me a letter.. the CT gave me a letter.. OG gave me a NY JC PEGASUS HOUSE TEE ( oh man i love it to bits. coincidentally i brought money to buy that shirt today.. but they were faster than me ) jiabing and laoda buy soya bean for me ( lol they know i like soya bean ) and of course OG cum CT bought me the cake. aaaannnnnddddddd everyone else for being there to sing the birthday song louder than the DRAGON BOATERS. that part rocked the canteen down. audrey later sms me and say i was very seh. hehex heheexxx

tks to thoes who sent me bday wishes. tks alot. i really appreciate it. you dont see i like that tpe down only.. but i really appreciate it. you must touch this computer screen of yours. den feel the sensation and warmth in your heart tt i an trying to send over to u.. haha. and tks to my CT and OG for the cake and all the presents and everything la. tks alot tks tks esp jiaping. haha

i think got 25 ppl sent sms over. and not forggetin thoes who stayed up til 12 last night just to wait for the idiot clock to strike 12. xinying was the first. wahh damn zhun just nice. but she did it online. tks la. tks to thoes who wished me personally in sch.. tks tks.. bruder yenyang called me frm on his way to vj. coool huh. told me he miss me... awww.. ok. later family got cake again. wahaha.

TELL ME WHATS THE PLAN FOR FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!! pon x-ctry? dun pon? go cchs? go out wid ct? oh man. one thing's for sure. this sat's dragonboat i wanna go.

From: "Chee Yew Sam" <sam.chee@crestar.com.sg>
To: "foo kam meng" <fookm@hc.edu.sg>,"Wee Gark Kung" <wee_gark_kung@moe.edu.sg>,<herngyih@hotmail.com>
CC: "Teo Kay Chee Lemmy" <lemmy.teo@crestar.com.sg>

Subject: Invitation to participate in FLL World Festival in Atlanta

Date: Thu, 19 Jan 2006 12:38:18 +0800


Hi Award winners, As award winners during the FLL Singapore 2005, you are invited to attend this Festival that will take place in Apr this year. For more details, please go to the FLL website and click 'World Festival'. I have received enquiries from other teams who are interested to attend, however, based on the Guidelines and rules, the awards winners should be invited first prior to the invitation being opened to others.


I look forward to receiving your reply by the 25 Jan 2006. Thank you and warmest regards,

Sam Chee Center Head

LEGO Education Center

Great World City

Tel: 65-62351910 Fax: 65-63338435

i made a girl cry.

oh well. go ahead and think. when was the last time u made another person cry. whether for pleasant or unpleasant stuffs. well. mine was on friday. friday nite. oh man. tt's not a very pleasant thing la. tt's my fault. my stupid wrong doing. so sorry man.

well its friday night at about 8.45. i've just finished my training. the parents dialogue started at 7. there were refreshments outside. so naturally hungry after my training. the bunch of us when to eat thier left over refreshments. the catering was set outside the lecture hall and there were tables for us to eat. so some minority of the badminton team were there having free dinner and resting.

beside us were two girls from some girls sch CHIJ sth sth. my freind tolld me it was st nics. oh wow. i shuder at that thought. u will find out y. anyway they were doing econs hw. and we were beside them eating. ok here comes the part.

being the usual me. i dun haf to go on wad abt me.. i jus went out loud to the girl " eh do you noe outside got striaght bus to orchard?"

"errr.. yar i tink..."


" ok. go get a life!"


wid that. she sorta dazzled awhile. den sat down.


minutes later. the ppl on my table told me she was crying.

OK GG. tt's it. at first i din believe it was becos of me. until i was MADE (by my table ppl.. my captain was dere too) to go and find out. eventually. it HIT ME HARD. tt she was crying becos of my remark.


somehow. she went off into the dark area of the sch compound ( the parade square area) to cry. again. i went to up apologise. i haf to muster up all the guts and courage to do it. frankly it was awkward for me. and sorta first time. to go up and apologise for sth so terrible. like u break another persons vase at his place. den how u expect to make it to up them? i dunno. so pai seh.


anyway. i followed her whr she went. and she told me not to follow her in a .. agitated voice x10. wic means practically screaming la.) den i stop lor. i went back to explain things to her fwen. hu was very understanding. and was abit on my side. and well. she is willing to help me out. tks alot.


end up. end of day. her parents inside LT listening to dialogue and tt is scary cos shes crying and her parents are inside. can u imagine wad happen if she goes in. or her parents come out. i am FRESH MEAT ( butcher in dota ). so yea. imagine the shit i was in. anyway end of day. i stayed to settle this matter and to apologise to her again. making my stand tt i was joking only and i did not mean it seriously. she gave ma a three fingers up. as tho indicatin its ok alr. hell. i camped outside the girls toilet to wait for her to come out so i can apologise. half the time i was worrying my wits out if she would scream at me again and not accept my apologies. anyway. i tink she felt better. and gave me a signal. wic made me felt better.


jiabing say he would be disturbed thr out the weekends if it had been him. well. i tink i was ok. cos i enjoyed dragonboat. juz today. and my bdae's coming!!! NTHS STOPPING ME. wish me happy bdae will ya? presents r strongly reccommended. anything practical will do fine.

wow seriously. no goood. ar ar. *shake head* im experiencing an all time low low, down low period in my life. so well.. lets hope LONG BLOG ENTRIES will be an efffective therapy for me to get through this tough season.

everytime i want to blog.. i figure how much percentage of my personal, individual thoughts and reflections to be noted down here. yar. its like an automatic censorship. it which i go through what i want to type in my mind.. think of what i want to blog. in my mind. before actually bloggin it. seriously. i dread and fear and is damn particular of the consequences of lettin some ppl read what i;ve written. say i say person A is a bitch. and if person A blog-hops by. den im GOOD GAME alr. (refer to previous posts to find out what's good game)

so lets hope. this entry will be 100% percent heart to heart blog. (not heart to heart talk) with u. my computer. and nth else. even so. imma clear history files and delete every temporary folder in internet. so i leave no trace behind. Only jus a registered online blog in this virtual world when no one really lives or survives in.

ok i go from backwards sequence ok? first up. second before blogging. and even while blogging down the first paragraph. im having this fake conver wid melissa. melissa from cchs 4hm. yes yes im part of her history files record. which she probably save me under file name as BASTARD. but well. i cant do much to change that fact. and yar. shes like. going thoes typical GIRLS SCHOOL TALK style abt how she is so fawning over this pretty boy in her Millenia Institute. (im going into damn straght freaking NO HOLD BACK honest opnions. i dun give a **** even if this starts an uproar. cos i am feelin shit now. and feel shit gives u the license to do shit. i'll prob edit dis when i read back dis silly post) I CALL THIS DESPO. yar. she sounds so god damn despo over dis guy. like sum shit guy that has a pretty exterior. good lookin facade. hot , cool , cute appearances and she claims he has a HOT BODY. and she took a pic of it and placeed it as her dp. and she was like trying to haolian it to me. like hey. i dun give a heck ok. ( i lazy use **** anymore.. lets be civilised ok?) so whats if he's hot. he's life. free like air. free like water and sunshine. go get him if u haf the guts. or ability. seriously. dun come tellin me all these shit EVEN THO i told u that u can always find me to chat when u're bored and to update me on MI stuffs. for one. imma guy. i dun care abt another good lookin guy ( did i jus say another?) for 2. i dun care even if u two start going steads and going intimate. i feel happy for u and him. end of story. so PLS. dun go thoes oh-so-fake tone and keep tellin me abt how u went to and tapped his shoulder and say "hi" to him. i dun care really. and ur tone.. speech. manner of expressing urself is damn disgustin. so many hahas here and there. i cant stand it. what's more. u're tokin abt sth i dun rili care. so all dis factors add up to a not very happy me. ( i am seldom unhappy. seriously. ) and tt's y i replied wid my standard... usual... ultra SUAN mode. if u cant feel it. den i guess my skills r deproving. but faris should know im should be at least lvl 24 now alr. ( my suanin and indirect way of tokin) lvl 24 cos its one more lvl to lvl 25 wic is max lvl in dota.

ok so before i come online. time check now is 1.45 am. and my big sis juz drove the car back and shes home now.. i was playin soccer at my house bball court. RARE. ultra rare. firstly. i reached the court at abt 11pm. cos i was on my way home from nanyang. so i saw 5 small boys playin socccer. mind u. they r sec1's and they play DAMN FREAKING GOOD soccer. so i thick skin abit. ( train ur public speakin skills) and went to to ask if i can join them ( small kids... jc1 fella come join small kids kick ball? wtf?) and they r of cos ok wid it. if anyone rejects u. they r damn busted. cos the odd. i join even. anyway. i play for like damn long. i remind u again. i was on my way home from NANYANG. wic was a damn hectic day considering im physically tired and mentally tired from the past few days namely the PE DAY. and of cos today's trng badmminton cca aided in my fatigue level. so yar. play soccer? in the middle of the night? bball court? legs hand muscle pain? its.. no sense. no link. so anyway. i cant be bothered to go on abt how i played. how they played. acted or whether i had fun. it aint impt. jus know the fact. i played soccer till like past mid night. bball court. wic a bunch of i dunno kids. i dunno them. onli saw one of them in holy innocent uniform. and tt one of them is a gabrelite. i hope i got that spellin correct. and ya. one of them is 19. malay. and hes so damn pro. i jus had to ask him abt his profile. end up. im correct.. he "used to" ( inverted commas means i lifted directly from his speeecch widout alteration) play for tampines under 18's soccer. cool huh. i wanted to ask for his contact. so at least i got another backin in soccer. but like hey. hu gives a heck when my life is in an all time low low now.

ok so before i almost reach home and before i started to play soccer wid small kids hu r almost as tall as me. sum tt is. but r MORE PRO den me. i gotta admit.... i was in sch. yes. pegasus house is screening or rather was or had. screened 50 first dates and SHUTTER.. woooooooooo.. ya lar. ghost show. not bad lar. quite typical and ju on type. so yar. i missed the first show. cos it starts at 6. in which. i was having my cca. yes that's e word. badminton.

cca badminton. wow. badminton. used to be my password for every account i used.. ( see i told u im revealing too much) yes badminton. since pri sch to sec sch. to now jc life i haf not much intentions of droppin it. as a sport or as a hobby.. but today. tks to nanyang. it changed all that. i feel so.. arrgh. go break my racquet now. n see one badminton player. beat one badminton player. ( do it in chinese) its like. gao xing in MVP qing ren. at fers. damn gd player. den deal to too much fame and glory. dunno y olso. den become a BA KA. (handicap) den when he attend sch. qi sui. he stopped them from seting up a bball club. im like feelin like that now. ok lar. maybe not that serious. haha. hey guess what. i just typed badminton for no ryhme or reason. i guess im too used to typing that word for my password liao. den tink olso nv tink den just physically typed it out. ok nvm. tt aside. lets continue. dis will be a long story on hownanyang changed my view on joiinin badminton in ny. seriously.. i hope my perception changes. i hope things change. im stiu keepin my options open.. i wanna be mature...


firstly. coach sucks. yes. dun ask me how much he sucks. jus picture a LAO THIKO. ji ko bei. wid yellow teeth ( yellow denctures i tink) and summore BOO-GAY one. got one space whr teeth is supposed to be seen but is MIA. (missin in action) lol. ok. after tt? picture his character as. COLD JOKES GUY? hu tinks he's damn funny. tink he's so funny tt. i can be bothered to luff. rili. if u r funny. i luff. not funny. but try to be funny. maybe i luff. but. HE TINKS HES SUCHA GOD DAMN JOKER. i cant be bothered to luff. ok la. lets hope no one who was there today is reading this. cos. he openly suan'ed me infront of everyone. and go ahead. tink im a sore loser and all being so pettty and whimpy abt him critising me. go ahead. im jus a nother human and im just sharin my woes wid the com. what he say? " u think u r satay seller ar?" exactly tt's what he say. reason being i tend to spin my racquet as and when i like. during footwork.. during matches... or what shitt. i spin la. not much of an action its jus spinnin usin the grip.. the handle as an axis. and spin it lor. not spin the whole thing. but rotate it rather. can can? understand? ok. ya. he suan me. ok tt's 1. no2. we r told to do footwork. im like. ok. different coaches got different way of coaching. and how the hell am i supposed to know what this coach want. ESP SINCE HE NV SAY ANYTHING. he nv explain or say. so i went down do my normal footowork. and thinkin its the standard procedure. how to do? its just a court wid 6 corners. u must reach to its corner. lets tok abt the side corner. if u r a human and u play badminton. n u do footwork like everyone else does. den the norm is for u to reach to the sides. and not swing it. onli for the sides. net and baseline different. must tap and jump to smach frescpectively. but sides. i usually stretch my racquet and bend down to indicate yes i've been to that point. and yes. i haf SEEMINGLY returned the shuttle back to my opponent. but the coach. hu was incidentally standing beside me. beside my coourt. chose to stop me and say " eh like that ar?" meaning im doing it wrong. he showed a swing racquet gesture. and i infer that he want me to swing my racquet when i reach the side. to indicate I HAF REALLY RETURNED THE SHUTTLE physically. i bein the usual me who wants no trouble went " orh okokokokokokokokokokok.. sorry" yes. if u noe me well. tt's what i do to simmer u down from ur wadeva sudden uproar in attitude. tt's 2. now for 3. we r separated into groups of 3. ok i cut short on dis. jus know that. he tok. i nv listen. he whistle. and everyone moves. i continue slackin and sittin in my corner. and he screams " eh who's supposed to take this court? y is it empty?" den my group. leroy from dunman high. jiabing from woodlands (new made og pal since day1 orientation coincidentally in badminton olso oubles player) jus sprang to life. actually i first started the spirnging action. and went. "orh sorry its our grp" BUT! half the reason y im so blur is becos another grp has taken our pervious and supposed designated court. so i gave an excuse that " oh they take our court" sth to dis extent to smoke my way out that we didnt react or move upon his whistle becos sum1 has occupied it. guess what he reply. or ratehr. RETORT. " they take ur court den no nid do la? den u must well go home!" i tot his jokin or wad shit. cos im like all cheery and luffy and like. happy go lucky abt it. BUT. when i turn to him to look at his bloody god damn face after he made that statement. it was thoes kind of expression in which a DM has just lectured a student. thoes black face. stern. god damn angry kind of face. so like wth. was tt needed? y must like. arrow and pinpoint me juz becos i gave an excuse for the 3 OF US not moving to our court? had i kept my mouth shut. i wondered if he could haf the chance to pick on me. seriously. its jus becos i open mouth tt's y he must retort back. tt's wad i feel. and not on the fundamental reason dat we didnt move to our court upon his whistle. like hey. leroy and jiabing was stoning olso la. must diao me meh? knn.


ok sorry. tt's 3 for coach. sorry add in one more. his thi ko bei ness can be seen from the fact that during trng. HE ONLY TALKS To GILRLS. and faces one above average more chio more cute more good lookin girl. and of all other beginners he's supposed to adress say daryl from chungcheng from 4jt. yes he join badminton. the coach chose to face that girl. and tok as tho. shes the only one dere. completely ignoring the rest. like so obvious he's havin his yellow dirty eyes on her only la. if tt's my sis. im so gonna rip him aprt. den sue him. yellow dirty eyes. keep starin at girls only. yuck. i despise u. ( is it too strong? i mite regret writin all dis one day.. nvm i'll edit den ) so coach is 4 faults.

j2? nth much. jus one word. lousy. seriously. i cant wish to explain myself. cos kynan and my other seniors and even ny ogls say ny badminton is lousy. so. dun bother findin out more. when i say they r lousy. i only salute the captain. but like even today.................................. he's trying to find faults wid me olso. when i tok while coach is tokin. he must boom out. " oie listen!" den like. get everyone's attention on me. is tt needed? behind got ppl tok must single me out again ar. den when the coach wanted to chosoe grps. the captain point to me for me to be in his grp. i noe his reasons. i tink he tryin to want to play me on the court. make me appear lousy. shag me out. or challenge me. ok . i offcially say i chicken out. cos im no more in my prime in badminton. and olso physical fitness.


ok lets add one more fault to the coach. as i said when he choosin to form a grp for training. he din choose me to be on captain's grp. he chose or the other SEEMINGLY pros one. namely. dis fat guy from SJI. and according to weijie.. the anderson badminton captain. he's like kiato same ize same type same pattern but only lousier den kiato. seriously. the j1's hu went today. r beginners. i wun use noobs. its a wrong word and its insulting. they jus choose to start afresh a new badminton cca in jc life. no background from sec sch. u can tell frm the way they play. e only few i individually pointed out yo myself who are once in badminton sch team for sec sch is SJI and anderson guy. and guess what. i feel i can beat them. they r not exactly damn good or pro. nor exactly damn lousy. but u let me play 1v1 them in singles court. i tink i make them run can win liao. so yea. coach NV CHOOSE ME. to me its like a silent and indirect first team option. he chose thoes that looked better in badminton. but of all. no me. den guess what. place them wid sum other j2 and captain in middle court. and gave them multi shuttle. like hey. in sec sch. i will be the one doin multi shuttle. and probably doing the most onne at that. most as in. most shuttle one. means long and tiring and more tough la. now i come nyjc. HEY> im at a far away court side court stroking wid sum j2 i tink is in cca team only! OMG! i see all j2's. like. i seriously can beat most of them la. if not all. ok. i am modest and i gotta be honest. 3-4 players i cant touch. but hey. im sure im good enuff for a third singles. but no. im not in centre court doing thoes "special training " with the coach. so ya. he neglects all everyone else. ok not veryone else. he only negliects me and jia bing's court and leave us rottin stroking wid the j2 seniors. for throughout the whole cca. so fun rite? stroke? they call it drill summore. what lob drop lift. go eat shit. i haf enuff of that from sec sch. and i only want to receieve smashes from benjamin and tt's only called training. today one was like. i dunno wad to say. badminton for beginners day. (damn i reveal too much.)

so since coach is like that. j2's some cmi. and plus i tink the girls badminton team one see me bu shuang buay song cos i tried to "da jiao dao" wid them and i see no wrong in tt. probably leaving them wid a wrong idea. maybe they haf a perception that a lowly j1 junior like me. haf no rights whatsoever to tok to them. cos when i did .. one of them went " your brother ar? no? den y he tok like that" i dun tink i need to go further. till dis point. just stop. reflect and recall me as a friend. as a human being. and think abt my character. if i deserve what i got and how i was treated. pls. start a anti-darren club in fwenster. and den or tag on my tagboard. and come vulgar wid me and say " god damn u darren u deserve it" otherwise. den u r my brudder. and u haf seen the whole side of me. the good natured side. dat i dun tink i was rude... haolian.. atitude problem or wad shit today during badminton. to deserve what i got. seriously. i feel that im a big debt now. having declared bankrupt and all. and i went to jump off a buildin to commit suicide. an analogy tt is. its like the suicide the jumpin off the buildin is writing down dis entry in my online blog. and the debts and all r wad forced me to do so. and the debts r? whatever happened today. melissa's case.. ny badminton case. and all else. even now. my big sis is scoldin. lecturuin. niao'in me. threatening. critising me for usin her table.. her com. " dun push me too far ar. dun test my limits" in her usual bossy tone. i cant blame much. im jus unlucky. stupid and rude to be usin her table now. ya whatever. she's so gonna set password on her com liao. and i cant dota anymore liao. serious. im back to my old com soon i guess. she will set password to stop me from usin her com liao. long story. so bback to today. tell me what went wrong. i'll change. and advise me. if i shud stay on badminton. or drop entirely. no more badminton in my life. like what im doing to robotics. no more robotics in my life. and start sth new. for me. no first team = no join cca. if ny badminton is of such standard and i cant make it to first team jus becos of personal grudges the coach may haf on me. den im so gonna end badminton. tho i suffer myself. cos i suffer not being able to gain glory and honour for my jc. jianhao my ogl noe me in this part well. i clearly said i wan personaly individual fame and glory. in which i take and claim. so i can share wid my sch. if i dun get first team tho i deserve to. or dun deserve to. im gonna quit. if the coach and captain stiu haf grudges and "gu yi diao nan wo" im gonna quit. if minghui continues trying to find out wic bloody idiot darren is in ny badminton.. im gonna quit. tell me. y shud i stay on in badminton. i haf only one way out.

PAE BRING ME TO ANOTHER JC PLS. (verge of tears.. verge) as much as i love nanyang and all the fun and fwens ive established. if badminton cca ruins it for me. im gone from ny.

well all you have to do is to type links. den click on all my links i left there and read up thier blog. mostly will tell u abt orientation alr. so like. its needless to say here. cos everything is almost the same. but to me. its jus the fun degree tt's diff. say now i would like rate my sch and mjc funness ratin to be highest? cos like. tj, ij, or even vj, aj.. like.. sonds quite standard and the ppl dere r like either complainin abt boring orientation.. lousy jc.. boring sch.. or like lousy admin staff. whatever the case it. hang in there for 1 1/2 months. n u will be out. (hopefully)


so i doubt i haf to repeat abt orientation group. so jc life and shit. shall blog later. not very impt. thoes no ftm. jus know u dun haf to go to another sch and start another sch life tt's all. u dun lose out much. u onli lose out on spendin time wif ur fwen in ftm.


for thoes in ftm. jus concentrate on rating ur sch. and see how fun izzit. when u get ur reults in mid feb den deicde to stay or not. for me everything is still pending. mite even go poly hu knows.



for everyone else out dere. haf fun and chill and enjoy life.