wah poot. xmas is over. haha. lets do this seldom done recap on what i've done for e past few days ok?

wah. to shop fr e xmas exchange shit at gordon's place was tedious sia.. go bugis.. walk here walk dere. wad bugis village.. den bugis parco itself.. walk up walk down. all done wid faris.. budget was sth like 10-30? lol. den guess what. i exceeded it. so untypical me la. i would usually hit or barely scrap the min price. lol. not that i do dis often or always buy presents.. i mean like dis is almost my fers time? but who cares la. just make it good la. lol den spent abt 35? den when e actual gift exchange was made... i doubt they even hit 30. or maybe sum did. i dunno. i just see what they give and judge myself maybe onli 20 plus ba. i duno.

xmas eve went kayakin as i said i would. wow. completed one star course just like that. its easy. bu ran jiao one star?! haha. but i wun forget the fers day on 17. wah.. first time exercise during the hols. den like can say almost over-exert myself. come back home in fact havent come back home my hands alr pain like shit sia. hand pain.. skin pain cos of sun burn.. den scalp pain olso. ya la ya la balding la.. so the lack-of-hair-spots on my head was red due to the evil sun rays la... den im thinkin like my scalp is peeling like that. cos a few days after that.. when my hands like ruffle thru my hand got white white things like that. almost like dandruff but i dun tink dandruff so big.. so i conclude is my skin peeling lor.. like yuck rite. rite on top of my head. eeew.. anyway its over.. or rather its healing and gettin better. so back to kayaking.. i felt that it was a complete waste of time la. like.. everything i noe alr?!?!?! its like.. now for me to go thru a course of BASIC VBALL COURSE.. or like FUNDAMENTALS of playin soccer. or like.. tips to shooting a bball.. like wth la.. i guess i tink i know enuff to not go thru thoes stupid basic courses la.. but being the follow-sequence kinda guy.. i just go wid the flow lor.. learn from beginning.. so first star was basiccaly repeating everything i think i noe la. like paddling forward or how to move in a straight line.. lol.. any idiot would know u must paddle equal no on both sides la. if u 5 times left den 3 times left.. of cos it will slant to one side rite?! so moving straight din pose so much of a prob as i tot it would.. lol. now to haolian..

while e others were desperately trying to paddle striaght forward.. i was paddlin backwards.. like.. back stroke la. den summore i can be faster and straighter den them lol. so like when instructor say ok paddle to that fishing boat.. i went like backwards.. den overtake everyone.. den ended up fers.. den i had to face everyone else paddling towards me.. u can picture? like u runnin a race.. den u take the lead.. den u run backwards and look at everyone else like paddlin hard towards u.. so funny la. i dun even noe to look at them.. thier faces.. or pretent to be paddling wid difficulty.. what can i say? i guess obs did up my basics for kayaking pretty well. ok tt's damn swell headed la.. but anyway. i haf to admit i stil learn new things la. like how to move side ways.. using J DRAW and CLASS DRAW.. thats cool la. and i can on the spot do 360 turn.. its so like robotics la.. motor a and motor c. left is motor a right is motor c.. den havin programmed so many times of turning move forward move backward.. so like my brain was thinkin in terms of robotic to paddle the kayak. lol. innovative? i rather think its stupid.

ok la.. overall the course was cool.. made new fwens. but seriously i din expect the course to haf adults la. but easily.. guess what... im the youngest there. like can u believe it. i expected it to be like.. for kids onli.. like children of our age.. but hell.. 30 over adults married alr are there learning wid us.. and guess what.. they even haf thier own dirving license la.. so maybe.. i guess to them its just like going thru another driving lesson. but this time using a different mode of transport tt's all. 12 ppl. 3 of us the youngest. me derek and li xian.. the rest are like.. bigger den us liao.. den coincidentally there were 3 ny jc'ians there. like.. my senior! haha. den on the second day.. we moer open and fwenly wid each other liao. so since being the usual playful me.. and sociable and whatever u may call.. i went to disturb them. actually one. the nyjc senior. den paddle purposely go bang onto them.. den make them capsize.. but i din succeed. end up? derek and his sis (yes derek's sis cassandra tagged along on the second day.. she din pay for e course but just tagged along lor) started a capsize-darren-group. like woah. almost half the group came around me and wanna capsize me. can u imagine la.. u alone out there. so vunerable everyone having thier hands on my kayak and swaying it to and fro. while im desperately holding on to my seniors kayak to prevent myself from falling into the water. den water splash here splash there. leaving my kayak to be filled wid water.. like wow. inside got fish liao.. haha. dangerous sia.. so many kayak.. i was <----> dis close from capsizing into e water. like no way la. its standard u dowanna drop into the water and get wet. and ggoodness knows what lies in the water. even at the shore got so many jellyfish liao.. plus we so deep far out at sea.. bad place to capsize. lucky sum sense hit derek and when saw me so despo struggling to stay un-capsized told them to stop.. like wth. SO MANY la. all wanna take revenge.. swing kayak here and there, use paddle hit me. arrgh. (do i sound gay? im startin to sound like sum1..)

so yes. finally i haf my one star cert. ITS COOOL!!! immma one starr'er now. dun pray pray. next time can jio me out kayak liao. officially. cos im a certified one star! after kayakin wic ended abt 4 plus 5 on 24dec. went hometo prepare for dinner. lol. sis styled my hair. sia la. im soo out liao.. i so long no style rili forgot how to do it liao. serious. can sum enw hair trend faster start? so i can pick it up again.. i rili forgot how to spike liao. den when my sis did it for me.. its like.. dawning back onto me liao.. but freak it. who gives a damn abt the hair.. i so gonna change to side parting liao. thoes guai kia type ok? see me at jc hanging out wid nerds alr. so dun find me to party anymore. no more. books now. books books books den specs. dinner was cool at sume MISS U cafe at bedok. woah. e whole place seems almost booked by us. quite cool la. got wine got beer. haha. drink until face red. im not dat pro la. i dun go clubbin at thoes sort.. kinda noob compare to guoming. like who cares. grow up den say. like my sis la. after dinner go dunno whr club liao. zz. food was good. but still. the wine and beer rocks. not to mention new zealand natural icecream.. sedap! there olso got com wid internet. lol. use msn. haha

after that thon at gordons place. wahh. internet.. mahjong.. ps2... what celebrity death match.. big boobs girl squzze onli got milk come out to shoot ppl.. omg.. so disguting.. violent.. and ra.. keli brot her bro.. dman cool name sia.. alfi i tink.. wah he speak m'sia chinese i dun understand. den play dynasty warriors. wahhh he damn pro!!! buay tahan.. y isnt keli half as smart as her bro man.. sigh. gift exchange was cool. end up jenny is my mortal or angel i dunno wad. she gave me billabong leather wallet. woah woah faris must be thinkin what i think he is thinkin. but no. its quite small. and VELCRO. gay rite. jenny la.. gay wallet.. haha. joking la. wait its quicksilver. not billabong. haha. but tks la. tks all. xmas countdown was cool.

wad comes after xmas? countdown to 06. oh baby. oh baby. but b4 daty is wad? m'sia!! haha. spend spend spend. i wanan buy sch supplies and new yr clothes dere. den come back sg save up liao. no more shopping. but m'sia.. no way im gonna hold back man. haha. 28 29 go msia KL. gordon sis.. gordon.. eric.. xinhui.. me.. my sis.. thats the line up. 3-3. 3 guys 3 gers. travel by coach. go dere monring 8am flight. (izzit flight? on coach is flight meh) den come back on 29 midnight.. wooh that goona be so cool. travel all black black de.. any suggestion to do on the coach? or anything u guys wanna me to get u all? just tag ok. anything to buy.. what to do... places to intro.. just do it.


hope everyone else is living thier hols up. cos its one more last pathetic week okkk? soon tt privilege is gonna be snatched away from u whether u like it or not. chill guys.

Its almost christmas. Its coming. 4 more days. woot. Everyone's so in the spirit. People buying x'mas gifts, organizing x'mas parties, exchanging presents, and spending time out at town admiring thoes well-decorated streets. But actually, if you really think about it. What's christmas all about? It's actually really a chritian's season.. their holiday.. their time to celebrate and rejoice together. Just like what deepavali or veesak day is all about. Well, so dont you non christians out tehre feel guilty? Like u're celebrating someone else's holiday? Well.. i feel abit.. Esp since i went to church exactly this time last year.. and all in the sake and mood of what? Christmas.. It was like last year did i realise what christmas is all about. About sth to do with Jesus rising and sth blahblah. I dunno thoes proper terms and names for i am no staunch christian ok. I dont even know what's my real religion for goodness sake.

So what with all thoes celebrating christmas when you dont even know the meaning behind it? Its just like your parents tell you to eat ur veggies. And you dont know what's the purpose. So wth? You just gobble down thoes green stuffs? Wont you find it more meaningful to at leaqst find out what nutrition thoes green leaf can offer you? Bah. Y am i talking abt this esp since im celebrating x'mas itself when im not really a christian...


PAE results were out on 16th. Dunno.. maybe thoes all never register for it might just feeling this tingling sensation of like regret or envy for thoes ending up in thier desired jcs. Dunno. Just heard of one case.. Sihan from my primary school 6aa tall freak scored 11 points and yet not register for PAE. so. wth? Dun understand la. I just feel that first three months whether you make it to a good jc or not. Just go la! PLay also can what?! I mean like. you rather rot at home? I explain myself. YOu register for PAE. you get into srjc. Near my house. Maybe 15min walk? Or straight train. I can like wake up at 7.00 even if sch starts at 7.20. Ok im just kidding i take 30 mins to bathe. So ya. You go there. Sit in an enclosed area with 20-30 other human beiings and start your talking session. Admission free. So wth? Y not?


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Haha its time to grow up. Leave matters of robotics behind. Don't touch or pursue anymore. Its pointless! I am 16 going on 17 on next yr jan. 17 yr old means going JC. dec 16 i getting my PAE posting sch results. In which i will be told where i will study, play or slack, (to me make friends) for the next three months of next year 2006. After that i will get back my O's results and be posted to the real JC where i will stay for 2 years. Better be what i always wanted. Then after that, i will decide if i should go NETHERLANDS with Desmond's team or not. After striaghtening out my thoughts. I actually can give it a miss. Choose to OFFICIALLY FORMALLY and REALLY stop touching lego. I want to even not mentor, not go down to see competitions as its a waste of time. I just dont want to talk about it, hear about it or have anything to do with it. So much bad experience make me HATE ROBOTICS more and more. I regretted in day1 in Xinghua Primary why i first NOD my head to robotics.

quote by Lionel of Fuhua.. whom has graduated but still closely connected to me: "Robotics is a knowledge. Not a tool for adults to vie for power, wealth and glory. Feeding on others' passion is low." -----> infer

As for now? I really wont talk or care anymore about robotics. So.. pointless. Its an irrversible process in which our relationships with others can never be the same again. The whole alliance was never meant to be since from the start there is already prejudice about my school. Since iroc 01. Too many unpleasant memories like what breaking laptop and stuffs led to the labelling of Chungcheng robotics club ppl attitude SUCKs. Well. I hope i dont tho. So well. Carry on with life. Miss my secondary school friends. Look forward to making more new friends at Jc. and WELCOME jc life with arms wide open! YAY!

Going kayaking on eve of x'mas.. :`( going some xmas dinner after that. Waiting for friends to come back from overseas.. Still looking for jobs... Waiting to go back cchs play badminton.. Waiting for friends to go play ball.. And waiting for friends to go buy shoe and stuffs. Woot. who cares about robotics? My life seem so much carefree now.. Ok back to DOTA, MAPLESTORY , GUNBOUND, MSN, FRIENDSTER and of cos... cafe cartel girl.. =P

FOR ROBOTICS PPL

Ok. So im here. Its worth blogging down such events. Fll'05 if finally over. 3rd dec. Not what i've been looking forward to but stiu it was a wonderful ending. Actually i can care not to blog here for my friends or other fll partcipants has already done that. and it aint fun reading the same post talking about the whole competition over and over again. nvm. i'll just blog.

e plan was to not touch robot for e 2 days b4 e comp. it seems so even in other schs. i wonder y. i only know. this is just ONE of the other few comps that i've been working on my own. MY OWN means

1. No external Trainers, Instructors, Teachers or any other human help aged 20 and above.

2. No speacialised venue to do our robotics stuffs. Be it meeting to do Presentation or meeting to do Robot. There's is no FIXED venue. We do not have a place where we can go everyday just for this comp.

3. We're schoolless! The team being all Sec4's have graduated. And i kinda like that feeling. Not having to be tied down EDUCATIONALLY to any institute. But of cos inner feelings and loyalty to ur sec sch or pri sch still stays. (not like some others who care more for others schs den thier own alma matter. tt's ingrate for u)

So this time as usual. I wuld say im still the overall strategist and director. You can say that i just sit there do nth but just command. Yeah. I got no LEGO SET at home so i cant do any robot related stuffs at home. I know NUTS about FLASH so yea, cant help much abt the Presentation side. I've got no money, I've got no PLAYING FIELD at home (faris has it) and hell, the orginal plan for me to provide the WALLS of the playing field even backfired. So yea. What am i there for? Basically to add to the numbers and the noise pollution. I sit there and tell this tell that. COmmand him to do that, plead him to do this. So in short, i provide lip service and expect it to be carried out. Not happy? Confront me.

Im lousy useless and have a poor social life. This is evident at the comp day. Sec2. 2002. I go into robotics flanked by NUMEROUS other prestigious sch are top notched in robotics. Namely: Xinghua Primary ( my p sch) , Singapore Chinese Girls, Victoria, Hwa Chong, Bendemeer, Bedok north, Bukit panjang Govt... blah blah.. Y we were so strongly allianced then was bascially because of our trainers, Tribal Studioz. Whatever sch that they coached, were our friends, our allias, our supporters. But this time arnd. No such privilege. Its just chungcheng ( infact sum students frm cchs rather not help cchs but care more for others girls sch) and its alumni ( i cant say for all since sum also care more for primary sch pupils) . What to do? Its like Arsenal with Patrick Viera gone and van Persie being interested in a move to Man utd. That's chungcheng's robotics condition for you. For me? I prefer to be known as Arsene Wenger who's desperately managing this almost falling apart club and hoping the best for it.

Venue is in rulang pri. We use thier classsrooms to do everything. So coindentally, Wenxian from Vs is in the same room. You see him alone. Carrying laptop, a robot box, and some other boxes probably the spare lego parts. I shouted," Hi! Wenxian we're in the same room!" he ignored me. I dont think i need to explain Faris ( his senior sec4 in VS) reactions. Just read his blog ok? He got a page dedicated to Wenxian. But for me? I say its not his fault. He's good natured its just the influence. In the room, wenxian DAO-ed us. Actually dao is a soft word on how he treated us. He treated us as enemies. What for? I remeber wenxian as someone who goes to Xinghua Primary School chalet and making sandwiches for us when we havent even wake up. I remeber Wenxian for the countless sleepless nights, the guy who i treated as a brother. But now, its enemies. I wonder why. Izzit the fear of losing to us? Or izzit you think you are too superbly skilled to talk to NOOBS such as us? Can i remind you who first taught you how to programme and build a robot. Who BROUGHT you into robotics.

Ok u can see the group split up now. Hwa chong now is on thier own now since they haf the capabilities (they r gd i tell u) Xinghua is like kids without parents directing them just doing what they do best (aiming for awards) , VS IS GONE. as in faris' blog who said he heard a girl go " VS ROBOTCIS is dying" well to that extent i mean. Well so yea. Victoria now dun pose a threat to the robotics world now. Unless um1 does sth abt it. As for the tribal studioz group? Bedok north, scgs... now what with thoes UPCOMING schs REPLACING XINGHUA.. like juying primary and kcp. I see is as.. i dunno every 5 years swap the schs? Like 5 yrs concentrate on VS, xinghua, chungcheng.. now swap to KCP, Juying...? i dunno. maybe we're lousy and dun deserve it. or maybe we dun haf the attitude they like. my point? We are no more the group once so invincible and strong and formiddable as a force to be reckoned with. Now its just down to individual schs... fighting on thier own. NO more an ant colony.. its just scattered ants.

After comp, its prize presentation.. Desmond won it BIG. CCHS WON IT BIG. CCHS DID IT. and for thoes in cchs you deserve sharing the honour glory and fame. BUT if u look at us going on stage and feel jealous and sourness. You know u r guilty. I dun need to say anymore. Just ask yourselves. When you see us going up, IF anyone of you had felt a sense that we dun deserve to be dere or that u feel other's schs efforts were more than ours. Sorry, ur loyalty for cchs is gone. anyone loyal to cchs would haf cheered and gone bonkers over us winning an award for Lo chee lin. Anyone would haf gone Mdm Tan gonna get promotion liao. This kinda stuffs. But well, its ur conscience. u're ok wid it? den i am. for one i know i started the chungcheng ke mama cheer alone. wahaha. siao hor?

So.. maybe this two BIG YELLOW LEGO BRICKS does mean sth to us? the sch? the club? maybe more funding? more intrested students coming to learn robotics in our sch? another Singapore Quality Class award? i dunno. whatever the case is. im proud of it. i only know mdm tan will be damn proud of us again. sumtimes in robotics. its amazing how we nv fail not to let her down. she always gets e awards huh. haha. she's lucky to be the tcher in charge of it club man.

FOR NON-ROBOTICS PPL

haha. sorry ar. wasted my time on such robotics stuffs. but was fun la. tks to thoes hu prayed for me. and sorry to thoes whom i've let down. mainly faris. im sorry bro. no robot performance becos of prog1. sorry. and ryan.. haha sorry ar. nv once haf we won a fers. its always second or consolation prizes. sorry dude. but the TEAM WORK award is indeed meaningful. Shanglong me and u, ryan. haf worked together for 3 yrs liao. 3 yrs. i tink tt's damn cool. exosphere all e way.. and to the new mixed team. Logic, im speechless. I want to tk hernyih and esp James for sooooo much help.. I feel i've left u two down for not bringing home the more pretigious awards. but i hope the Team work award is a consolation. at least they saw how our TEAm work together.

once... ppl call me solo.. doing everything alone.. from xinghua misslim... to tibal studioz. when they see one person at the playing field. they always say whr ur team members.. but for wenxian's case.. i guess they made an exception. Even my dad told me i was solo. My mum olso. Now. this team work award proves a great deal. Im a soloist but i can work well in a team. Yea baby. im terrribly sorry tt e robot din work out well. luck wasnt wid us. supposedly programme to get a high score of 390 a la desmond hu got it. but guess wad. he's more lucky den me and maybe more consistent. i rmb on my last run. i on robot. i press run. yet, the programme is not running. PRESS PRESS PRESS. to no avail. ok gg. forgo first run. i bet ppl frm other schs watching me must be damn happy. like last yr when i failed one mission CHIJ TP GIRLS CHEERED. haha. i was like damn demoralised already when i fail the mision and they still can cheer. cheer as in happy that i failed the mission. not cheer for me ok. dis time.. well.. i heard none. but.. do u feel guilty of smirking to urself when i failed e mission? if yes. hi betrayer.

desmond ar desmond... u r damn lucky u noe? can u imagine how much effort SCGS has put in? e times they spent doing robot.. e numerous trainings. e help they got from others.. yet u took it away from them. can u imagine thier agony? i know how they feel. its just like when i got second while admiralty got first. its just luck that helped them win. likewise for ur case.. its luck. remmeber ar marine parade crestar? u were watching my robot wid so much envy.. so much yearning that ur robot culd complete thoes tasks like i did. i know. u even went " wah liao darren u all sure win one la" i rmb ok. cos i wanted to comfort u. but i know we were not "SURE WIN" and tt u stood a chance. tt dere is no "SURE WIN" thing. I rmb when we shared the playing field at crestar. my robot kept completeing every mission wid ease. while u were stuck everytime. plus on ur own. i saw all that. but on 3rd dec. u proved everyone wrong. u r no push over. tt u haf what it takes to represent singapore and compete wid other countries. DUN STOP CCHS"S ROBOTICS LEGEND. Hernyih started it by going to IROC in 2000. I went for WRO in 2003. now.. 2006 u r going to world festival FLL! whether i will go or not depends. but one things for sure. u must learn fast now.. apply everything u learn. and be HUMBLE. dun forget ur roots. dun forget to ask for help if u need it. and most importantly. relationships beats competition. dun be glory hungry after dis award ok? all e way next yr at netherlands. do singapore proud do cchs proud. but more imptly, do ur parents proud.

http://www.firstlegoleague.org/nobanner.aspx?pid=18830 ----> fll 05 in s'pore

http://www.firstlegoleague.org/default.aspx?pid=13390 --------> world FLL

http://www.firstlegoleague.org/default.aspx?pid=17100---> very soon. Team 1337 frm s'pore will be up dere.

ps: sorry. damn lousy post. im very very sorry. no mood to blog... check back la. i will resume my own blooging style. haf faith man. this one is becos of robotics season onli. after season is over. its hols and xmas season. party hard ppl. party hard sec4s.