been long since i last blogged ehh. miss me dont you. my blogger viewer rates are probably declining drastically. not that i really care. since i dont really want alot of ppl knowing what's going on in my life. heh. irony aint it. haha.

what with now the first three months over.. the proper jc terms officially starts. actually that is still not true since some jc's would do orientation. from friends. vj's oreintation is like 2 days only. and the 2nd day is only for class bonding. and feedback is the whole thing sucks. esp with the second intakers being ostracised and stuffs. well. i feel that's the thing about oreintation2 in general. people who staying behind have already formed cliques and formed groups of thier own. who would really want to care about newcomers. with that.. it would be rather difficult to try and make friends. cos u either fit into the group. or you're out.

my case
well the hoohaa and controversy ( lol sounds big deal eh) about me staying behind in nanyang or transferring to tj is over. since the appealing dates to nanyang is over already. so i have to stay in tj already. not that im complaining. but. i DO feel attached to nanyang and stuffs. NY for being so near my house. 30 mins. NY for the freaking coool cca DRAGONBOAT. NY for the many ccchs ppl i know. Ny for the friends i've already made in first three months. but tj? what has tj got to offer me meh.. ya ya. holistic studying and stuffs like that... being a better jc it PROBABLY offers a brighter jc for me. that can be very subjective but im a pressure kind of guy. no pressure. i dont work. only under pushing and competition will i really shine through. i guess im very competitve. ya. very. so it a way it does benefit me to study in a better schoool. but tj is far. 1hr journey where i have to change 3 buses. the ppl i know in tj aint as many as the people i know in ny... PLUS the cca in tj is rather limited. or rather. i dont know what to join. and i will definetly miss dragonboating. so what to join in tj? badminton? robotics? zz.

tj orientation
it was fun overall. at first it was really boring. esp the first day. you can just cry on the spot. oh no. its me. i can just cry on the spot. no fun. no friends. no guailan session and not much chance for me to open up and be sociable. mainly because.... in the OG.. everyone else knows everyone else. im like. the odd one out. so like. who wants to care about me. plus. i dont really want to form a bad impression on them. so well. first day i was a NOBODY. (as how weijie said of me in ny's first day) usually... as days passs.. i will become my usual irritating self and start playing around. but to be honest. i dont think i've opened up much. not as i did in nanyang. i would say.. in nanyang at least i was more well received and more amiable with. in tj.. i would just wait for people to talk. haha. who knows. its been just 5 days of orientation. BUT again.. the last day was cool.. simply cos john was around. tt's what i realised. i need someone i know to be around. for me to be myself. if people around me are strangers or people im still not close with.. i will just SHUT UP. inside and outside. but if these people start to bond and i become closer to them.. i think i would make a better companion. is that natural? i hope it is. cos i dont really like to be loud and so OPENED up when you dont know the people around you. its like.. so thick-skinned and disgraceful.. haah. the o night was fun i would say. what with bands coming to play and perform rock music.. its was almost like disco.. it was akin to ny's disco night. except the audience in NY was more lively and there aint a live band performing. tj's audience were like.. soooo dead.. so sian. i used a super strong torchlight emitting red light and flicker everywhere. lol. disco lights. after that when people saw me holdoing a torchlight they went " oh so it was u doing the light" haha. one thing tho. tj is damn particular about thier CLAN aka house. they want thier clan to win so much... they care more about gaining points than having fun. that shoudn't be the case. but seriously i wonder why they like to compete so much amongst clan. does that really foster school spirit? i dont really expereince that in nanyang. anyways. MY CLAN WON. and ALOT of people like my clan leader. as in her style and her charisma and her power.. shes some malay girl from TKGs i think. one thing i feel about tj is.. this oreintation is like. 100% j1's organise. i dont really like that. having j1 emcees.. j1 leaders here there everywhere. must listen to them.. obey them.. follow them. i think mainly cos im a leader inside? or rather i want to be a leader. tt y when i see people of the same age commanding me or holding the microphone to lecture us about keeping quiet or behiving ourselves. im just so turned off.

like who the hell are you to lecture me. you nothing just a *god-knows-who- appointed leader. you dont stand for nothing. nobody knows if you really got the quality. just about writing a good speech with no grammatical error allows you to win votes and hence resulting in your eventual CLAN LEADER title is bullshit. if that's the case, i'll just look for miss chan my oh-so-chim eng teacher to draft my sript and with my commanding aura and presentation skills. just BOOMBA and let you all stand in awe infront of me? thats gay. i rather being appointed the leader cos I AM A LEADER INSIDE. cos i have what it takes. cos i have the quality to be one. i see people who are virtually unknowns in secondary school. not having any experience whatsoever of being a leader in any way be it cca or class. no stepping out to hold *big-deal* posts and having all thoes rank and status in the schoool. i already have an disadvantage in not being in tj for first three months.. having seeing gay people holding leadership roles in this oreintation aint making it better. im not implying im good. but i want people who are good to be up there. and not be up there because of an english perfect script. furthermore. who's to vouch you're a good leader? no one's been under you before. and the most disgusting thing is you win votes based on your looks. like WTF. tt's is freakin gay. can i like find a tom cruise look alike to come run for sc or excip or whatever shit there is? actually i can. cos blind girls who are blinded by the exterior facade couldnt care less much. they just wanna support thier pretty " idol". its preety simple to find people like that. if your votes come predominantly from a particular gender.. you know you are shit. you're either gay. or you're just a "zhong kan bu zhong yong" pretty boy. if you got charima and leadership qualities.. i'll be your fan. but if all you known ifs thoes few pathetic moves and pathetic words to say on the stage.. get lost.

i state an example. A guy goes on stage with the mic.
DAY 1. "house a can i hear sth from you?" *cheer* "how about house b?" *cheer* "and house c?" *cheer*
DAY 2. "house a make some noise!" *cheer* "house b can i hear sth from u?" *cheer* "and house c?"
DAY 3. "house a i want to hear some cheering!" *cheer* "house b can you do better than them?" *cheer* "house c can you beat them???" *cheer*

you know what? go bang the wall. if thoes are the pathetic few words you know. give the mic to someone else with a better voice. at least a nicer voice wont be that boring. and each time you hold a mic. cos its ur turn to do it. and u jut ask for cheer. and in the same order. same manner. same style. same intonation. you can go just eat shit. i dont know if i can do better. but i like niao'ing them cos its irritating. and i've got supporters. as in im not alone. tk goodness the whole shit is over.

anyway the last o nite was cool. and people crashed. they joined us in the hall. and ryan was dere. and ryan shouted " ******* go home!" haha. its a persons name. cos it sec sch. he is a gay. he is a virtual unknown. his cca is gay. (oh wait does he haf a cca?) his sverything is gay. he is a loner. and well. i would say outcast. so when you see him up a stage. i just want to look somewhere else. apparrently. the daring bold and loud ryan did the job and he told me he sorta jeered at him. haha. guailan it is. but i would be like him. except niao'in him softly. not out loud. haha

nike joga futsal JOGA BONITO
i just came and im back. the whole event was rather mini scaled but still people i know came down to watch and participate. i formed my team with two indonesians whom i got to know in nyjc. hance our team name inddovers. its supposed to represent thier country. haha. im outcasted man. anyway. i like my team. cos we're good. the rules are such. 3v3. first to score wins. but within 3 min no one scores.. both get out. winner stay loser out. winner gets a nike swoosh chop. the loser gets a cross. people who draw gets a circle. you are given a card. the most nike swoosh chop wins. you play anywhere. four pitches to choose from. you win you stay in picth. lose you get out of pitch and queue up again. how good is my team? the first 5 matches. we WON ALL. win straight five games you gotta get out of the pitch. and re queue. i think its fair play. prevent domination. anyway. we did it =) first 5 games. i scored 3 times. tyco and not tyco. either way. its a win. the whole thing was coooool. since my team was winning like no one's business. den we lost two games. and den we won 5 games striaght again. tt's how gd or how lousy the opponents were. of cos there were times when we played with pros. and we feeed them. hence they gained more chops den us. of cos. we try to feed on noobs. and hence we got 10 chops in total. top two teams gets into finals. and guess wad. top 2 teams got 14 and 11 chops rescpectively. my team got 10. wasted aint it. but nvm. the team wid 11 chops. was a noob team. thier team name? "soccer noobs" and starting.. they were already meant to lose and werent prepared to win. lady luck was shining on them tho. we met 4 times. we won them 3 times. and they won us once. end up? when 14 chops vs 11 chops?11 chops won. thier match was gay. someone from 14 chops tot the ball rolled out. and stopped play. 11chops however rushed in and scored. and the ref allowed it. oh well. GAYNESS. the noob team won. btw the 14 chops was a pro team. ny soccer team. cap and vice cap all in the team. and we played with them. and we won =) so looks like. we ought to win eh? actually we ourselves were gay. since we slacked so much after the match. and din really queued up religiously like we should. hence we wasted time not playing. and thus not winning. haha.

brazils futsal team came. 6 of them. tall. dark. BRAZIL. they came. they played. they made us cheer like no ones business. and displayed all samba soccer tricks possible. you name it they did it. just buy a game of nike 3v3 soccer on ps2. try doing stunts and tricks. well. i just saw it being performed live infront of my eyes. im stunned. totally. they took pictures.. played friendly with us.. and sign autographs.. and hell. thier showmanship is great. i love thier humour and skills. they played once with the girls. and jokingly tried to get close with the girls. like they would indirectly let the girls score. then cheer with them. haha. hands raised and jumping up and down sorta thing. haha. damn funny. then got one. all girls go in play match. and it was hectic. two balls. and they still demostarted skills and fair play and showmanship. one of them shifted the goalpost for the girls to score. HAHA. gay la. anyway. i got thier poster. but i lazy to let them sign cos i was more vent on playing soccer. haha. anyway. it was fun. thrillling. and the atmosphere was high. just know this. i almost won. 10chops and 11 chops. i lack one chop. ok? haha.

hols start liao. make up lectures... chiong dvd. chiong dota. chiong prata.. chiiong dragonboat.. chiong overnight. and now? chiong to marina bay to eat steamboat wid badminton pals and coach. cos im freaking late. yea.