Should change attitude towards climbing. Dont say things like, "I cannot" or "Impossible to do" kinda shits. Anything is possible its just whether its within your capablity or within your physical limits to do it or not. So even if theres a gay reachy tile damn high up and that only chicken or jiahe can reach, i must still tell myself i can do it and jump and cut lose and hang on like a monkey. Whether using strength or not, just go and GRAB and HOLD the tile. In other words, complete the freakin route.

Games are forms of entertainment meant to either kill time or provide you short term "high" or "shiokness" or temporary heavenly feeling. Sucks when that feeling becomes nothing and becomes stress and pressure and the constant need to push yourself to play JUST TO TRAIN HARDER and be BETTER in the game. Its a game. Game = having fun. Not a Competition which means you have to win. So in GAMES main motive is to ENJOY not win. Competition then you go all out and WIN not have fun. So i repeat, GAMe's number one motive in life is to provide entertainment.and thats the number one priority and nothing else. Everything else should come after that. Espeically winning. Also, its about strengthing bonds and creating bonding sessions. Its ULTIMATE GAY when a game doesnt come to provide any of the above two mention qualities ( enjoy, bonding ) . So you should quit the game whevener you feel STRESS or you dont find yourself accomplishing the above two qualities.

Gay results. Different people have different expectations of results. Gay to compare what he thinks is good to what you think is not and vice versa.

Train, study, bond, increase social network, work. Thats all to anyones life isnt it? Thats all ANYONE can possibly do about life isnt it. Thats all to life right?

I need something to help spice up my life. Not too much. Just help me break my routine-like daily lifestyle? Its getting boring. Seriously.

i want to break free. haha.

ok climb on. joga bonito. mug. and oh, my left arms biceps injury has gone to another higher level of pain that i will a tingling pain even now. like almost everytime now. please tell me there's still the physio in tj. pls.

Just got back from Marina Bay with the climbing kids. Was there to catch the fireworks apparently prepared by Italy? Claire said something about Italy's fireworks being somewhat the most anticipated and expensive one compared to the others. And I was like still thinking this fireworks is for the National Day celebrations thing. Its almost like the watch-fireworks season now. Everyone's taking time off to rush to some open place to watch fireworks at 9pm. At first was I was rather reluctant to go, considering I havent started on my Organic Chem. And the frigging lecture test is like. TMR? But after witnessing the fireworks, I was like 100 percent convinced I did not make the wrong move in stepping out of my house. SPLENDID absolute captivating mesmerising display of colour. For one second I felt a tinge of envy and jealousy for thoes swiping out their cameras and handphones taking photos or videos of that spectaular scene. Barely 8 mins and I was caught dumbfounded. Thats why I was silently lamenting on the fact I dont have a good enough handphone to record that 8 mins down. Pity. But there's always next year. COME BACK WITh 3 MP Camera Phone sia.

I hate my left arm's injury. NOt even sure if its an injury or not I only know that when I boulder too vigorously or for too long, my muscles start to ache. Biceps triceps whatever. It just hurts. And I dont like that at all. It sucks totally when you're doing well on the wall, completing moves whether through technique or through mere bull strength, it does take some energy or some strain on your muscles to climb. And when the pain comes. It stays and affects my climbing. I cant freaking exert any strength to freaking grip the tile. I dont know if I should go see the physio or some Chinese Sinseh. I just dont feel like forking out money to pay them for doing nothing. Unless its a guarantee cure. But I doubt they can really do anything to it. What? Muscle balm? Bandage? It totally irks me when the pain comes. Then its the end of my climbing session effectively. So PAIN stay away. Dont bug me now that I'm training for Batu. NONO. Bug me now while you can and dont come near when I'm at Batu.

I'm quite looking forward to Batu Caves. 3 weeks away from now I will be going off to somewhere in Malaysia? To climb some cool cave with cool walls and cool tiles. They said its a guaranteed place for improvement and I'm looking forward to how much I can improve or how much I can accomplish. Sad thing though, its LEAD CLIMBING and i heard the clips are quite far away from one another. So one fall ESPCIALLY when you're clipping in means DYNAMIC FALL aka GG. lol. Chicken knows best.

Talking which, I completed overhang on lead. And Im proud of that accomplishment though some dont see a need for me to celebrate since its so easy to them and I'm being discrimintated for that. Well, screw you. Thats real encouraging that is.

Its rather screwed up how I see others are reacting to what I say. Im trying to be serious sometimes and attempting to the best of my ability to get my message across but people just see it as a joke. It sucks. Just wanna keep my mouth shut. But even by doing so people will say I'm weird and question my silence. Sometimes its funny when you take a shot at insinuating or trying to put me down. In other words niao'in or suan'in is ok in small amounts and periodically. But when it comes in group and I dont find it funny or the others dont find it funny then thank you very much at making Mr Good tempered Darren angry. Just wait for the day where i flare up. Dont worry I will flare at the right time where I have all the rights in the world to do so. Then blow your mind off. But then again, that'll never happen. I'm a peace lover, love maker and good natured harmless cute guy. Okay end of entry you can hit Alt F4 now. Anyway my point is, just try and know your limits and mine too when attempting to make a joke out of something will you? I'm my mother's child too just like you.

Woot, i love to joga bonito with my class but not when we're not playing our best and losing. Recently just caught up with my friend from Nanyang called Melcher who is now in AC. He was from Zhonghua by the way. And I freaking miss my Joga Bonito team or Sumadhi and James. Man we were almost like the second top scoring team in Nanyang la. The only team that can defeat us would be the Nanyang Year 2 soccer team comprising of the captain and two other pro kias. Makes me reminisce about the times I had in Nanyang where we played soccer on the bball court. Damn song la. Damn different from playing in d area in TJ since the goal post is so much smaller. And it feels damn good to play passing-type of soccer compared to TJ's technique-filled soccer. Man i miss soccering in Nanyang. Alas, my soccering times in TJ has yet to reach its peak. Shit, time to haolian.

John told me his team got one guy say I'm the secret weapon of Gamma Team1. In actual fact though my name is down on the Team List i didnt freaking played a single match. Haha, couldnt bring myself to pon training only to play in the match and risk being scouted by Mr Tong to join the soccer team. I cant la. Its unloyal to Climbing. I'm a climber and i PLAY soccer i dont KICK soccer so stop saying, " Let's go kick soccer" in front of me. The word is play. And PLAY BEAUTIFULLY. That's what Joga Bonito is about. Playing beautifully. Not kicking or scoring. You dig? So flaunt your step overs and feints and do a back heel to score. Then I will polish your boots for you.

EPL season seems forever to come. But tomorrows the Comm Shield already? Chelsea VS Liverpool? I'm predicting Liverpool might win marginally considering Chelsea's team so new and has not exactly bonded well as a team on the pitch yet. So Liverpool With Craig Bellamy and Jermain Pennant and the usual Steven Gerr might seem good enough to score. Ah whatever talking like some pundit. Flood my tagboard if I'm wrong. But i'm rooting for Arsenal to win the EPL and Cham League man. GO gunners.

Looking forward to Seniors Farewell where HOPEFULLY i get to play ball on the beach. Whee! Volleyball seh. Beach soccer sounds cool also la.

Ah freak you wake up. You got Chem test and Physics Test and Chem and Physics Spa back to back just this beckoning week. Oh, what a morale booster.

just had napfa 5 items today. frigging hell. i dont know if i should feel sad about not training for this times napfa properly or to feel happy that despite not training for it, i did fairly ok. just for recordings sake. imma flaunt my lousy grades.

sbj : 257. knn second attempt then can 257. wheres my freakin flair man.

shuttle : 9.17. knn i run one time nia. first time in like dunno how many months sumore. ask the swimming teacher who's taking us for shuttle run if i can run again or not. he dun allow. say what a liao. zz. i going for record can. so uninspirational.

sit up : freaking hell. screw mr goh. just because i was talking to chicken and i was slow in getting ready to do the sit up. he scold me. sth like : eh boy one more time ar" in thoes. fed up tone. knn. den i do 59 sit up exactly. with terence counting. he come over and say " how many? 59? no minus 9. 50. five zero only" anything lorh mr goh. lucky i do more. if i nv do more i do just nice A and let you like that minus i wont let you off man. jeapardise my gold. anyway im quite happy at doing 59 and heck caring mr goh for givin me 50 only. tho i still lose to rebecca. she did 62 in sec4. 0_0

pull up : i went down to the pull up bar station. i see mr goh there. and i know " i had a bad day.. taking one down.. " so i told myself. to avoid him minus again. i do 9 proper ones first. confirm my A first with standard and proper pull up den b4 i can relax. if not god knows how many pull ups he will minus later on. so i did. and wasted strength cos i tried not to swing my body and did nth except use arm strength and pull. pulled 9 stnadard ones and my energy is like half gone liao. den when i do 15 liao. i know im gone liao. cannot reach 20 liao. but i kek kek kek . do roughly 19. come down. he shake head and say " no. 17 only " tks ar mr goh. i lurve euu worhs.

sit and reach : DRAMAAAAAA... i DO 42. she say one try only. if wanna re do must finish everything den go back to her. i finished everything. and went back to her with kenneth only while the rest scoop home. i sacrifce my time ok. (actually no la i went to play soccer after that) den i do second time. 42. ok GG. its a C. there goes my full marks. my 5 A's for 5 items. b4 doin my second try i fantasize abt even having a B. a 29 is next best to not having 30 ( full marks ) but no. i let myself down. screw everything up la. zz. more yoga sessions for me liao. i wanna stretch properly from now on.

climbing world cup at expo. sat sun. you wanna go down. you jio me. we go down tgr. i tink exspo hall 5. whole day. will be damn fun and nice i tink.

sorry for not updating. besides training. climbing. soccer. hw and sch. im nth. lost all my bloggin flair liao. now dis place deserted. no one's coming. but eeven better. i can pen my private thoughts next time. woo

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Currents
Current Mood: thankful and relieved exams are over. but guilty over results.
Current Taste: taste of unbrushed teeth and whatever is left of my fried rice dinner at katong.
Current Clothes: topless and pants.
Current Desktop: the waterfall where we slide down at Gunung Stong.
Current Toenail Colour: how abt white?
Curent Time: 2.30am.
Current Surroundings: at home.
Current Annoyances: not sleeping, no one to talk to, no dota to play
Current Thoughts: what will happen during training tmr, how to spend the long weekends.

First
First Best Friends: primary school: wenjian, john
First Crush: if i nv rmb wrongly it was two way. and i have fotos to prove it. us, sitting real close to each other. a girl called hui ru in my pap kindergarten. we used to hold hands in kindergarten. and her mother opposes to her being so close to a boy like me. wonder hows she doin now. if only we can meet on the streets....
First Movie: duno la.
First Lie: whoever can recalls this is either lying or has recalled wrongly.
First Music: national athem?

Lasts
Last Cigarette: marlboro light which i bought at the 7-11 store on the way home.
Last Drink: some drink my dad force me to drink
Last Car Ride: bus 112 on the way home from katong.
Last Crush: last? its still lingerin inside.. and its just a mini secret admiration over a girl called michelle whom i just saw on frenster whom i've noticed in school.
Last Movie: ice age 2 with 2-3 other classmates from 19. really ICE AGE huh.
Last Phone Call: xinhui? askin to go watch world cup on sat tgr at kovan.
Last CD played: a soft tune goin in my head with the lyrics "strange as it seems, cos shes the one im after..."
Last song played: "...cos shes bitter sweet, she knocks me off my feet.."

Have you ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: best friend of opposite sex u mean. ya? whoever u date would definitely be either your best or close friend in one way or another, isnt it.
Have you ever broken the law: smokin?
Have you ever been arrested: ya ya. smokin
Have you ever skinny-dipped: skinny dip straight down to the skin? topless bathing in waterfall at Gunung Stong counted?
Have you ever been on TV: yea. channel 8 interview me on robotics for not sleepin 5 nights not eatin for 3 days. i wonder whr my thon-prowess has gone to. convert this passion i have to muggin i will be going on the Deans List.
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: dont know? how about kissed alr den realise "hey shouldnt i get to know her better first?"

5 things you are wearing: pants, underwear, tower wrapped around my neck.
4 things you done today: ECONS PAPER (screwedup) PHY PAPER (screwedupalso) Computer therapy at katong $3.20 saw felix and pals. Coming online (now) realisin its almost 4-5 days i havent touched the com.
3 things you can hear right now: dads snoring, clock tickin, vehicles outside on road.
1 thing you do when you are bored: find sth to do when im bored.

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