Sometimes, I just cant seem to fucking understand people's rationale and perceptions of things. What's up with this fucked up world? Why must things be so fucked up sometimes. Cant things be normal or something?

Is it fucking wrong to want to do something i deem fucking right? Or by doing something i perceieve as "right" is actually fucking wrong to some people? And when I think it is them who is fucked up, they are actually thinking the other way about me. So who is right? I used to think that the marjority is right. And I always believe in numbers. But this time. Things are so fucked up. I think I am so fucking wrong. I still think I'm right and i don't give a flying fuck about how the others will think, see or fucking have to say about me. You know what?

FUCK OFF!

Even when I tried to find some solitude in computer games, it only serves to prove much more than being futile but a fucking wrongdoing of mine. It makes me wanna fucking end my fucking life. No wait, why do I have to end my life. Why can't the others end theirs. Wait. No one will. I should just fucking get hold of a revolver and keep it inside my drawer. That way, with the slightest of unwelcoming feeling I get I can fucking blow that fucker's brain off. Yea. That sounds cool. But its so unrealistic. I can only resort to fucking realistic means which is to fucking blog this fucking feeling now. And fucking hope nobody reads this and come questioning my sanity or to fucking show some concern. Again, you know what if you even wanna try the above two suggestions?

FUCK OFF!

yea.. thats just some shit people can say.. just some shit to some shit request or some shit suggestion. yea.. NUMBERS do count. Esp if it comes in a fucking bunch. And I thought playing with A.I was boring.. seems like playing with a fellow human being and one being labelled as a friend of X YEARS at that doesnt seem to improve the situation. In fact, things cant help but get fucking worst.

me and my sis at tian an men square.

looks quite like cchs audi eh? ok except maybe not as big.

that guys calling for buyers.

and im helping him move the goods.

my dad and i at xiao wang fu. hes trying to act stupid.

btw that place serve real good food.

me and my sis. somewhere along great wall.

me and great wall. doing what weicheng taught me too.

to hold up the sky.

at some french restaurant. real high class.

nice ambience and decorations and furniture.

food's ex too. thats whr i tried the spore sling. eew.

bing tang hulu. some chinese food served usually doing winter

as a appetiser. you always see this in olden chinese shows.

just some fruits something like cherry coated with frozen sugar water.

real sweet and juicy and crunchy.

acting dumb at some shopping centre. tts where i bought my astro boy shirt. this is at outside some shopping centre in tian jin.

trust me. its freezing cold.

im acting brave by not zipping up my jacket.

my dad mum and i.

somewhere near his tianjin apartment. its really cold.

acting dumb again. under the instructions of my sis to pose for this.

hey that ryhmes.

the lego clock. which faris is so fascinated about.

he says the two lego figures are pointing middle fingers.

go ahead. zoom in yourself and see. 3.2mp phone is for REAL one.

the xmas gift we left for Lego Education Centre in parkway highest level.

the juniors and i built it. just some 5-10 mins work on it. dumb and silly yes.

but when we left it beside the counter it was pretty nice. a nice ornament indeed.

desmond. my junior in cchs. grown alot through robotics. seen him evolved

from a follower to a leader now. do me proud in norway. (if u're gg)

The TEAM. with weiseng wearing my CREATIVITY shirt.

i didnt know it would be so appropriate when i chose

the shirt with the words CREATIVITY.

coincides with the award perfectly.

the UNcharismatic team.

and finally the award. a reassurance for us.

some people might think its no big shit. but there are times when

people dont get what they deserve.

we know who the true winners are. and we stand by the motto creativity and being innovative. clonning is a loserish way to win. loserish yes. but quite a sure way to win. not an insult nor a complement. its just how things work and how much you desire to win. but with integrity or not. its up to you.

to Faris: thanks bro for helping my juniors. cchs robotics is developing and im proud of them. bring me some international awards when you're there at norway with desmond ok? and theme song for fll 06? the stars wars song. attack of the clones. lol.