WOW. see the time now? its hours before the finals of rockmaster. i just finished mixing my own music after listening to gary's version of e songs " technologic" and "better off alone". woah. inspiration. causes me to do stupid stuffs like sacrificing my slp and being late for tmrs meetin and cheerin of terence. not to mention to screw up the rest of the week due to my accumulated insuffcient slp. add on that i havent touched any hw. i hope the songs were worth my while. pls ask me to send e songs to u and rate it! tks!

Maybe it's just because i over estimate myself. I think i am good. i think i am strong. i think i am weicheng, kelvin or terence. When in actual fact. Im just darren.

Maybe it's because i do so much sports and want to excel in each of them that i become a living example of "Jack of all trades, master of none." Hell, i wouldn't even dare say I'm as good as Jack or have such favourable terms of trade that i can proudly use "all".

Maybe it's because I was pampered by Coach in CCHS such that i cant take it lying down the fact that i'm not even second best. Or third best. Or even 4th best. Hell, this can go on forever.

Maybe it's because i've nurtured this sore-loserish attitude within me that i'm afraid of losing. Or that i have problems coming to terms with losing. Losing wouldn't mean competing myself against someone, but rather fighting the pump and finishing the route.

Maybe it's because i fare so much better in other sports like badminton, volleyball or soccer that i feel my standards in climbing is way below mediocre. I don't really know about this.

Maybe it's because i have high expectations. I want to do well all the time and finish all the routes i set out doing.

Maybe it's because i compare myself too much with others. Especially Terence. Which everyone knows is so thick-skinned and bu zi liang li. But somehow. I cant help but feel jealous at his skills when seemingly, i've put in a tad more effort than him and yet still lose out to him. Its frustrating to know that i've sacrificed my month-long diet and abstained from meat just to reduce pump and yet to no avail. And i trust you all know how much i cant live without devouring meat.

Maybe it's because im jealous of how philip concentrates on either eleanor or terence and neglect somehow the problems im facing. Like i need some guidance or at least a ray of light on this dark road but yet i have to go searching for the light to find my way.

I can have so many maybe. But my sis wanna use the com. so i shall end this nonsensical post that i dont meant half of what i've said. cos i just needed to add drama and spice here so people will come back reading and checking for updates.

Anyhow, i shall pick myself up... TAKE THE LEAD. WALK IT OUT.

SMACK THAT. SHAKE. RUN IT. PUMP IT. GO HARD OR GO HOME.

LETS GO. IM'MA SHINE.

*yeah.. listening to these songs does pick me real high up.

You don't need anxiety and problems. All you really seek is a conflict free environment which can offer peace and mental security. You don't like the idea of being alone and, whatever the reason, at this time of your life you feel as if you are being 'left out'. What you really need is perhaps some 'tender loving care'.

You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.

In spite of the fact that you believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, it is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influenceand there is no-one to turn to or rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalise but you need to realise a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire.


Some online personality test Bel introduced. According to him, its supposed to be damn true and accurate. I dont know. I only think its about 40% true. What do you think? Tell me on tagboard leh. What's true whats not.

7/4/2007
i COMPLETED MEGA ROOF! my worst nightmare. now my sweetest dream. i cant express the exhilration and the ecstacy i felt when i grabbed the last tile.

ok. off to try my sisters pasta now. BYE

Wow. A rare array to Weng Seng's blog gave me renewed vigour. Heh. I hope it'll last. Always give me new perceptions to things happening around me and how to take life. Yeah. Take life from his points of view. Nothing is taken too seriously and with his "fuck-heck" attitude. Wah. He seriously enjoys life to the max.

http://www.nusclimb.com/climb-boulderactive/schedule/
Friday 23rd march 2007. atrium@orchard. Found outside Plaza Singapura, beside dhoby ghaut mrt. Finals on Sunday. Holy.

Let's go.