one fine day. we all meet at mac. gordon as usual whipped out his n70 two megapixel fone with dunno 20 times zoom and started zi-pai'in. (this word will be come infamous one day) and well. the other two goons beside him. just titled thier head. and joined in the "fun". my sis say gordon looks damn zhuai. i haf to agree. and xinying says i look cute. COULDNT AGREE LESS

wad? tt's all i get for scoring 6A's and 5a1's?!?! oh come on. i expected more..

ps: dun zoom into the award. i've changed my name. anyway dis shot was like. taken on grad day? wic is like. months ago...

i dreamt of JAE sia. i cant rmb much now. to come and think about it. it was still fresh just this morning when i woke up to pee. but now. after one game of dota of using SA and gettin 10 kills and 0 death (tts very tyco and rare trust me) i cant recall what happen. but roughly. its about JAE posting results. i dreamt.... i was in vj?!?! then like. exact details im not sure.. but i think i got in vj. and er.. "refreshing" experience? cos i used to say i've nv dreamt of going into vj. but well. literally it happened just last night la. but now to come and think of it. i might want to appeal out if i get in vj la. somehow now.. i wan NANYANG alot alot. nanyang the most. followed by tj. if they post me into tj. i dun think i'll complain. but vj.. i might reconsider. as i've said. imma very friends person. freinds afffect me. if suddenly half of cchs move to nanyang.. come on man. i think i follow suit. but if my other buddies going tj.. den tj it is.. do i sound like i got a choice in this whole JAE? lol. anyway. suddenly.. vj sounds so far.. and.. well. i'm no even sure if i wan vj. dunnno if i can cut it... oh well. 3rd march. zoom past faster. and i dun even noe wads the procedure to collect the posting results. sum1 tagg and enlighten me will u? 3rd march fri go online check? or wad? sch will let us noe? means we must go sch find out? goodness.. i noe nuts.

http://www.moe.gov.sg/esp/schadm/jae/ moe web doesnt says much lor.

more and more homework. even now? when posting results are going to be released soon? so the point is. i noe i shud do. and i wan to do. but i dun feel like doing. so wth? i noe if i posted to vj.. imma lose out alot. imma like.. lagg behind by alot. and to chase and catch up. ill be en tougher. since im not exactly tt fast and smart. so again. a point to consider if i am posted to vj. i tink i suit better to tj and ny.. god..

im so farrrrrr away form robotics now..... stuffs are slowly being forgottenn.. nv fret. once i touch thoes lego bricks.. its should come slowly back........

dad is away

my dad flew off to china. tianjin to be exact. he said sth abt it being somewhere near beijing. though that didnt help me much. but that's not the point. the point is.. he will be back only 6 to 12 months later. ie half a year to a year. thats a long period of time. i guess the saying now "you only treasure it when its gone" thing is so true now. it sure is. sure is. i thought the send-off to the airport will be a tearful one. or rather. i was prepared for one. like. prepared to bite my tongue inside my mouth and to force back thoes tears. end up. it was a brief one. like. words. hugs. and waving. its abbrubt in a way. damn why must he go. by the time he's back... dozen things would have changed. big sis and meimei would have finished thier university and secondary education alr. thier big exams eg O lvls. we would have changed to our new car. some black sports car mitsubishi lancer shit. with spoiler and sports car wheel rim and the shades on windows to prevent rain from falling in. not to mention i would alr have posted to my new jc. and probably finished my promos alr. might and hopefully during the june hols we can fly over to see him. oh yea. he's there on a business trip. providing service to some big motorola company. can get motorola hp at special prices. but well. i aint too interested. for this trip. he got a new motorola razor v3. and a new HP laptop. coool huh. so now im the only male in the house. besides romeo the dog of course. and well. i've got to take matters into my hands dun i? =P but seriously. it feel weird. someone missing in the house now.

o's result

8 points. seems nice. big deal. single digit. but when i tell you its a 8 minus 2. then i think its shit. the forever regret of not taking HCL heightens here once again. i hate people. who get 9. wow. lose to me. big shit. but later. 9 minus 4. WOW. 5! so nice! hit vj cut off just nice! and me? 6 is like. can go in vj meh? its like. sian la. sian becos i cant minus 4. really. imagine 8 - 4. i think i will be over the moon. briefly. the day of the release of results was.. strangely nostalgic. going back to cchs and all. seeing thoes old faces... and then. i dun feel shit. like calm before a storm? ok whatever. the usual presentation.. summary of results.. and stuffs. time to give out. me being the last in queue. saw alot of others gettin scores like. 12... 13... 14... 15.. and even the prcs like... 8 ???? so when its my turn.. i sat down.. miss sharmila thrust me this pink form and chants " good score good score" im like. HUH? i felt abit better. cos what i was expecting by then was to at least stay in ny. at least. anyway i thought everyone else had the pink form and that there's no big deal. but when i was told my score. im like. utter stunn. stand up. still cant believe the shit. and went around screaming.. " im going to hollywood!" while waving the pink form like some lunatic.

choices of sch?

i like to ask fwens this question. cos to me. it matters. im a friends kinda person. they affect me alot. i cant be bothered to express how much. esp close one whom i can clique. really wish and hope so much we can end up in the same institution whether same class or not. but well. the JAE posting aint as i planned of hoped. days of O lvl examination. i said i would make a list of friends. and wirte down thier choices of sch. den to a certain percentage. let it decide my choices of sch. but well. it din work out. so tt's y. im mixed up and confused. everyhting is so fast paced, i cant just stop time. and grab each and everyone of my friend and ask them thoroughly what thier choices are. like i said. PLS DO DO DO tell me where are you going can? i really want to know. lets not lose touch and keep in contact ok?

sch life now.

ny is fun. damn i will def miss this place. if i leave tt is. and well. im considering to appeal back to ny even if i posted to vj? i really dunno. so can i ask sth from u? pls tell me whr u r posted to on 3rd march. it aids my decision on whether to stay in ny or not. tks. and i must take lessons seriously now. tho i stil have a problem quitting dota and doing homework. oh yea. i said to quit dota. if i score single digit. i broke that vow. but hell i will stop. i need time. i will stop gradually. like some drug addict quiiting drugs. man i dun smoke. i take drugs ok.

im sure gonna miss ny dragonboat. i really really will miss ny dragonboat. miss my god damn brudders now in my class. hanging out with them... and like today.. train after school doing pull ups. like how gay. i wouldnt do it one. but. they want it. they force me. and what can i say. im a friends person. so im there with there doing the shit. TO MY OUTRIGHT HORROR. i do 5 only i abit pangchek liao. TMD. used to do at leats 15. now 5 i tired liao. damnit. looks like this wake up call came just in time. looks like you can find us idiots 4gays hanging at the pull up corner after school liao. btw. one of them is POOL ADDICT. another's TENNIS ADDICT. and they keep kajiao'in me and some girls. like. wth. thoes girls dun give a damn abt me. cos im just a teenage dirtbag baby... ok sry. got carried away.

got new home dvd thearte system. i've nv yearn so much to want to go home now. to watch dvd and blast thoes sound surround system. and to dota on com. oh damn. ok i will quit dota. sry. no dota. but dvd. staying in sch now makes more sense too tho. since im leaving. so im torn in between. go home watch play dota? stay sch wid fwens. savour this remaining times with them? anyway my class so into watchin movies la. FUn with dick and jane.. PINK PANTER shit. and what i want... final destination 3... hmmmm.. i wanna watch... any takers? tho actually im itching badly for i not stupid too to come out on dvd and watch at home with mummy. let her cry. lol. or now. any ny sch events i will sure turn up. cos hey. last few times.

ppl out dere. you free wad day. u tell me. den come ny. i meet u in busstop. i wil be tour guide for free. and will be there 24/7 as in throughout the day i will pon for u. rili. faris dis is very directly for u. u shud expereince jc life abit. any other jc ppl come ny la. fun. money back guarantee. and er.. i wanna crash other jc's too.. can sum1 offer me a trip?

btw do this survey for me. choose 5-6 words dat best describe me. den blloody shit hell pls leave ur actually full name behind pls thankyou.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=exosphere

Dont stare too long. Dont stare too much. If the next day your eyes red and swollen. You know why. Optrex cant help much by then. It was your fault. And i can assure you... What you see is what you get. This one is 100% real. Not fake. No professional help involved. Oh btw. tt's not me. Tt's really not me. The kayaking and dragonboating sessions are soooo not hot.

Friday is the day. I dont know if i'll post my score here. But you can ask me if you want personally. But if you are reading this... do pls tell me abt your choice of sch after getting your reesults. I treasure you. So you get results and know where to go alr. do tell me pls. Tks. i will consider going wid you.