" it is common for people to fear how they are judged before another and i would think twice before i want to give bytes of info that may give an unintended impression. everything that is said and done seems so scripted to make things look good.

things like "i just won 20 bucks at mahjong!" may make people think i'm a mahjong junkie. "shiok ah 8 to 5 job in army" may make people think i'm a slacker. "i'm an officer" makes people have a generally good impression.

will i ever be forthcoming to a complete stranger? "graham






" Army starts again tmr. We’re that close to commissioning. 21032009. They always said OCS was 9 long months, but the 9 long months has finally come to 7 weeks. Before long I’ll be counting the days to my commissioning using my fingers. ;D

Oh well. I really miss going to school. Today’s visit back to NY made me realise how much I wanna be a student again. Being a student > being a soldier, lol. Even with the exams. " jiajie (pls dun charge me)









random points:
0) see my blog archive. the rate at which i update my blog. average 5-10 entries a month last time. now 1-3 entries a month LOL

1) away to thailand 30jan to 15feb.

2) in the mean time i'll be missing out on CITYALIVE, bouldermania and the rest of cny. zz.

3) by e time i come back. it'd mean 32km route march for csb. man routemarch again. and it'll mean last 2 weeks in arty institute. and den 3 weeks of SAFTI OCS. man i wanna go back.

4) i'm lookin forward to all the formal dinners and ceremonies of commissioning. comms parade, dinner, comms ball, ACPC.. will you be my comms ball date pls

5) i see all e climber officers all enjoyin ns life all rather slack not so chiongsua anymore. i cant wait to be like them man. den finish up my drivin license and concentrate on beach vball and gettin back my muscles and strength for climbing.

6) oh ya boulderactive falls on my comms parade. zz. means prob climbers will hafta choose btw watchin my comms parade and boulderactive. and also means i cant go boulderactive.

7) i hope thailand will be fun. not xiong. alot of eye-openers and sight seeing and enjoying of scenery and may the weather be merciful on me. dun be too hot or too cold (which apparently is the case now in thailand).

8) i've learnt abit more abt pool frm elwin alr. level up.

9) i want joey's list of clubbing music and have my own itouch and spam all the songs in it to groove to.

10) i wanna go back to safti ocs for 3 wks of joint term. im lookin forward to the month of march. but not so to the end of feb where i gotta do csb. routemarch.

11) i wanna mahjong summore, lan more, chill more and climb more...

after i come back frm thai 15feb

From Jiajie's blog. He should start charging me for copying and pasting his every other posts here. lol

"Sawadee-crap
04Jan09
Leaving for Thailand today. It’s going to be another fast-paced, suffer outfield thing, though I doubt it’ll be as imba as JCC back in Brunei.
I’m really dreading this Ex. Crescendo thou. Then again, what I’m afraid of isn’t the perils of living outfield (9 days again lol). I’m more afraid of not being able to perform up to expectations, esp in missions where they’re out to access you. Zzz.
Lol, the only good thing I can see is that the next time I blog from this computer, I’l be about 8 weeks away from commissioning!
8 fucking long weeks lol zzzzzzz.
Okay bye."



Some similarities being:

1. im gg outfield for 3 days 2 nights too. except in spore. Ex. Firestrike.
32km tactical march. FBO. (yes F***BO), plus the Forward Observer's bag, plus all the extra fo load plus weapon.... i just hope god will bless me.

2. its an assessment exercise. if u fail or u dont score well enough, u dun commission. woot. moving with the infantry troops and calling for fire is another realm in my NS life so far. it has really taken me to another level of understanding and its NOT easy. so much info to upload into ur head. "afraid of not being able to perform up to expectations, esp in missions where they’re out to access you"
plus i repeat. 32km march. WITH FBO. k 'nuff said.

3. "I’l be about 8 weeks away from commissioning! 8 fucking long weeks lol zzzzzzz."
ok well. that's that. i'll be going thailand for Ex. Battleking on 30jan? CNY? 5 days after my bday? nice celebration hor. its ARTILLERY LIVE FIRING WORHS. i'll see how arty kill ppl. "With the baptism of fire, Arty cadets are now ready to be commissioned blahblahblah..."






















Enough about army. major chillings so far have been:
1. mahjong through the night with sooo many people. soo many times
2. night cycling into the new yr of 2009 with the climbers. ( like last yr)
3. sentosa at least 6 times these past weeks. nice playing with people who really knows how to play vball. zhengrui + yanberg = fun.
4. movies? ipman only =( i wanna watch yes man stil hvnt watch.
5. dota - the kill friendship game
6. opps hvnt been climbing. lol
7. Nintendo Wii! its fun! but lame. but stilll, fun! mario kart, bowling golf boxing tennis. errrhh!
8. xmas gathering w climbers was nice and heartwarming.
9. i think shalynn is a very strong girl. and i hope she stays that way. i know she will.
10. created a Forced Savings account ( My Savings Account ) in posb. hopefully will save enough from the army allowance to tide me through Uni life. 4 years hardly any income how to survive lol.
11. i wan my license soon and drive manual car zoom zoom.




for now. its ex .firestrike. zzzzzzzzz.

soc on monday.
just to get 8.59mins.

atp for the entire week. that means going to range and lots of arms maintenance.
i really want to get marksman. i want the badge.

gg to get confined sat 8am to sun 8am. =((((
after so long. im finally serving my confinement on 291109. my very first ever. virgin experience. i hope i dont waste my time and that it doesnt get too boring. u can sms me if u like =D

long weekend is abt to end.
friday night prata supper with sis and dad str after booking out.
sat morn sentosa. hot sun hot sand hot bods and vballs. made a few ADA friends. they're quite cool. caught chihuahua at vivo w jw and limzy. ultra big threatre vivo lol. had long talks with limzy. man, i miss e club. home. dota. quite shiok.

now's left tmr. SUNDAY. BOOK IN DAY. pls make it eventful tmr... pls.

had ippt on friday. 23 pullups (one less :c ) 9 shuttlerun 56 situps (they minus my situps again dont believe ask ernest) 243 sbj and..........................

9.32 fastest ever 2.4km!!!! woOOHOOoo!


Ok la sorry weicheng i know still very slow. and i know u very fast. sorry. sorry.


its really mental war in my head before ippt, before the 2.4km run. esp after the 4 static stations, waiting to do the 2.4km run. damn nervous. always just 9.44mins away from gold. the feeling of butterflies in stomach, adrenalin rush ( or sometimes e lack of it ) and all the mental thoughts keep running through your head... man.. its quite torturous u know? anyway im done with ippt in common phase. yes common phase only. still got 2 more ippt sessions in specialised phase. boo



anyw e night before i stayed up till 3am. cos i couldnt slp. cos i got caught by instructor for using hp to msg climbers to climb on sat. ALL TKS TO SHA who refused to help me msg cos she wanna mug -_- i spent the whole night worrying and thinking abt the punishment they would give.



end up.....




1 X CONFINEMENT THIS WEEKEND. THANKS AR.



summore fri-sat is Exercise Milo. ie 2d1n field camp. ie sat night den end exercise. means if i confine i wont get to book out at all for the weekend. means stay in 2 weeks in AI. OMG. summore this is my first i repeat first ever time being confine. well done. i broke my own record. i scarred / black mark / ruined/ failed/ everything negative u can think of by earning this

1 X CONFINEMENT.









at least i got to book out on fri night. our first ever fri night book out in AI. and at least i managed to try tj's new boulder wall. cool wall cool colour cool gradient of overhang and cool routes. though i've become quite chui and i deproved quite a lot from the last few sessions. DAMN SAD. i dowanna lose my bouldering techniques!!! gotta train and maintain fitness in camp. and thats only the bare minimum i can do. maybe install fingerboard inside bunk can train abit of finger strength so can own terence next time we climb on sat. ERRR!!



2major exams over. ippt gold. i left SOC to clear. which is this wed. pls pray for me. I wanna pass it with less den 9.30mins so tt i've cleared soc and ippt. pls pls pls let me do below 9min for soc on wed ok?


past few days in bunk desmond lau taught us break dancing. i've learn 1-2 moves here and there. the "very basic baby freeze" and a not so smooth grass cutter. anyws. im proud to be learning sth new everyday in AI. like how weicheng and jy can have so much admin time to go mess and slack and play pool and go gym and chiong weights and play guitar and play pool. at least i learn how to break my bones and sprain my neck.


now im appointed cadet battery sergeant major. oh my. i hope i do well and dont screw up my appointment and i dont wayang like caspar.





just now day out with climbers feels good. make me feel whole again. too bad next week dont have. BUT NVM TTS Y TODAY HAVE. SO I CAN SURVIVE NEXT 2 WEEKS IN CAMP.




I LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING U HERE AGAIN in 2 WEEKS TIME.


is that clear?!

71/08 guys are really just counting down to thier comms parade. its like what, around 6 weeks left? dec 13th. this date must be contsnatly ringing in all their heads now. like really holding their breath everyday and just counting down. i dont think any female can understand this feeling of waiting or anticipation of the guys serving ns. its really a mental process. from today till that very day, they wake up telling themselves not to do anything wrong. not to screw something up. just hope everything passes by smoothly and like how rongjun puts it, " cross the finishing line" lol.

anyway on that very special day, i'll have like so many friends commissioning. jingwen from air wing as an ADA officer, rongjun from mids wing as a "i-dont-know-his-vocation" navy officer. not to mention grahams imba badge of JCC UPON HIS CHEST as an INFANTRY officer and of course weicheng as logs officer. next time can ask him help indent stores LOL.
not to mention all my other jc friends and tekong mates in all the other wings in ocs and the other vocations.

i seem to be able to accept the fact better that im still 3mths behind them. BUT i really cant help but envy them commissioning so soon. its really inspiring and i hope it affects me positively. to put me in the right state of mind for long till its finally my turn. heh. march 09. im waiting for you to come.

my phase in my cadet life now is really the "results" period. now we have two major exams on this coming tues and wed and all the many socs and ippts test which is really important as it affects your assessment as a cadet greatly. on a lighter note, i've gotten my IPPT GOLD! whee. i cant really be that excited since this is the first time i dont get my full marks. for my first time in life i jumped a miserable 234 and got a pathetic 4 pts for sbj. FIRST STATION some more. nevertheless my strong will and determination did not stop me from doing my best in their other stations and eventually getting my gold. but still im not like over the skies kind of happy cos its not my best performance, in fact my worst, performance for ippt. 24pullups 9s shuttle run 53situps 234sbj (wth) and 9.4 2.4km. im not gonna blame the automated sbj machine which many arty cadets do ( cos it srsly sucks cos u jump - 20cm of how much you jump on the normal sbj mats ) and not gonna blame the sit up machine for deducting at least 5 of my sit ups because i go down and come up too fast. ULTIMATELY I GOT MY GOLD i should be satisfied.



BUT


next friday got another ippt and if i dont get gold again. i'll have remedial training on saturday. means book out at 10am on saturday. means cannot climb in sch. means cannot try the new wall. means i 2 weeks nv get to climb. means i dont get to touch the tiles. means i still dont get to try the new walls in sch after so long.


SOOOOOOOOOOOO i must must must get my gold again on friday and im gonna freaking improve my results.


tues and wed is major Survey and Gunnery exam. i hardly studied. and its really alot of content and alot of knowledge to squeeze into your head cos they are really new to me. its really like maths and physics combined together and theres so much calculation and formulae that one question of calculating the angle and distance to fire the arty round easily takes up one whole A4 size of white paper. both sides USED mind you. and its just to find the angle and distance to fire off.


common phase
specialised phase
integrated phase
JOINT TERM... chocolate bar!

i left 5weeks to the end of common phase. den i get to choose my specialization. whether to choose more chiongsua specialisation or more studying and intellect speacialisation.




now im just looking forward to...

finisishing both exams on tues and wed... den have games after the exam in the evening on wed...
to do well in ippt on fri and get gold so i no need to have remedial trng on sat...
climb in sch on sat...
end of common phase...
choose my specialisation.. (exciting!)
start specialised phase which i hope will be more relaxing early ro more lights out and more friday book out..
long block leave 15-22dec...
xmas eve and xmas off. 24-25dec..
new yr 010109..
chinese new year...
my bday...
EX. BATTLEKING in thailand. (woot fire real arty rounds!)
joint term........................
march 09!!!!

for now... study for your exam la talk so much.