... hais... wanted to go !!! and started off the entry wid a ... birght note? but well.. cantt... it doesnt suit how i am feelin now.. now as in nite 11.25 friday nite... supposed to be last day of sch for sec sch students.. but well... not my sch... not my level.. wells... i stiu gotta endure and put up wid sch for lyk.. 2 more weeks? well.. it aint tt tough or impossible.. but its lyk.. i am so busy.. busy wid wad u ask.. well.. namely robotics. ( i noe dis word nv fade away in my life) badminton.. and of cos studies.. not to mention the craps and rubbishes i haf enrolled and joined and participated durin the hols. for eg.. the obs.. well.. i not too sure abt tt yet. cos sch hasnt given us ay info.. but anywae.. obs.. outward bound sch.. e overseas trip tingy.. goin to vietnam to learn abt thier RICH culture.. lol.. and err... not to mention i will me missin out my sch's sec3 camp.. well dis camp will be help for e fers time.. and i will def turn up if i can.. but i got WRO.. yes i noe.. its tis three damn letters always.. so i miss my sch's sec3 camp for wro. how great. and well.. becos of my obs and my vietnam trip.. i prob wuldbe missin out in my pri sch's chalet.. 6aa.. aww.. how sad.. as much as i wan to go.. i cant go.. well.. strangely. i am not doin anything abt it.. well cos if it was the younger me.. i wuld haf made sum noise and made sum arrangements for me to turn up at the chalet. but dis time? well.. if it doesnt clashes.. i attend.. clash den too badd.. and.. i sorta haf dis minor regrettion ( is dere such a word?) to signin up for the vietnam trip. fersly cos its in the middle of nowhere.., and i haf to miss my pri sch chalet. and tho i want to go wro. i hate it for clashin wid my sec3 camp. i cant let her go into e same group wid wanwuei.. no dat cant happen.. imma suppose to make sure dey dun get too close.. but WRO!! arrgh.. well.. wroo.. i done nth much.. its rili stressin.. cos its drawin nearer.. its next SAT!! nov6. e day i look forward to.. tinkin of it makes me all nervous.. tinkin of havin to compete wid pplfrm other countries.. and not to mention the sec schs in s'pore.. its tough enuff u noe.. wid fuhua rulang and admiralty.. ( y do i kip mentionin dis few schs when it cums to robotics?) and yet u goota go add on thoes other countries ppl.. i nv noe hu i will be competin against wid. ppl. support me well ya? pon ur sec3 camp if u hafta. its worth it. watch me win the wro. haha. as u can see and guess.. deres no gusto and i feel quite low on confidence.. unless sum1 start givin me encouragement.. i feel i will juz crumple.. i juz dun receieve the support i deserve.. i am representin s'pore.. hELLOO... and i stiu gotta worry for my re test!!!! physics and a maths. oh well.. i am not doin well in my studies.. improvement.. ya.. but not alot.. i wanna go mavis for tuition. i nid tuition.. i nid to stop robotics.. i nid to go for badminton trng.. next yr jan is the tournament season again.. and i m stiu here stuck in robotics season.. and exams season is dere SPLAT rite in the middle of everything. freak dis arrangement man.. had dis been stretched out thruout e yr.. i wuld feeel less stress.. my tama nid a mate.. when can i go connect wid her man.. haiss.. i dowan it to die.. muz carry on e generation line den can die!!! arrr!!! weihong say 12 yrs old or so will die le... mine 10 le!!! 2 days!!! how to mate within 2 days now.. do i rili hafta say "YES i am lonely" to mrs busybody the matchmaker? well... i hope not.. but hey// its meant to releive stress.. but ironically i feel stress over it.. so lets see... wad do i hafta worry and stress and go abt doin wid? 1. wro 5-6 nov.. 2. re exams wk afta wro. 3. packin for vietnam and obs.. (hey whens derek invitin me to his bdae party.. is he rili gonna leave me out juz lyk tt ? i wanna see his younger sister again!!!!boohoo.. not fair!!!!!! he invites everyone excepts ME!!!!) hey will i miss xinghua 6aa chalet anywae? i hoope not.. 4.. well... 4 is badminton.. coach rili not happy and angry and dpressed dat i am not attednin training.. hey i got robotics and i nid to go training for badminton.. how to handle? sian larr.. guide me leh... i am soo freakin stress... will sum1 juz sms me.. or call me anyday after 7 on my hp or juz tok to me on msn or send me a mail on fwenster or hotmail and tell me wad to do? tml sat.. monrin go xinghua do robot... afternoon robot... evenning i wan go coach bbq at marina bay.. haiss.. i stiu muz study for exams! man i kip forgettin.. my re exams arr... i muz pass arr.. i cannot fail again sia... pls larr... free me off sum of dis f******** stuffs lar.. i am busy enuff le lar.. holiday.. knn lar holiday... is she dao'in me now? i hope not. i am tinkin of herr.. opps?!